This Chapter just like all the others is a `First Draft` before I re-write my thoughts as a Word Document for inclusion in the book version.
The fact is I have to get my story on-the-record as without sounding like a `Drama Queen` I know my days are `numbered`.
Situations and things people say get me thinking about my past life and future death. The pretty girl in the hairdressers made me think of the memories I`ll leave behind for my children...and my recent stay in Southend Hospital reminded me of how much I dont like `old people`.
Like fat women what is the reason for there excistence?
I was the youngest in my Ward...the others were all old...looked old...and moaned non-stop. They complained to each other about the `foreign` nurses...but were `friendly` to there faces.
They made being two-faced into a art form...I got on great with all the nurses...black and white...the young ones I sort of `flirted` with in a `friendly way`...and enjoyed the older nurses `mothering me`...even though I was older then most of them...LOL.
I aint being a hypocrite cos I `hate` the militant muslims of East London as much as the next decent person...who are without doubt the scum of the earth...burning poppies and slagging our soldiers as they strut around in flowing `dresses`.
But as I tell my kids its a `Class Thing` and not `race hate`...the Asian nurses who looked after me...like the muslim consultant who carried out my operation are Middle Class and nothing like the low-life terrorist supporting traitors from dustbins like Forest Gate or shit-holes like inner-city Bradford.
Just as we (decent white people) have no connection to foul-mouthed white chavs on benefits who smoke weed, drink cheap booze and watch Eastenders...professional and medical muslims are different to the `white hating benefit scrounging` followers of militant islam.
The point of the story is that the `racist old gits` in the ward were an embarrassment...I am proud to say I 100% hate the Royal Family, the police, paedophiles and Tony Blair...but with muslims...its only the militants who hate me that I hate...but the old boys in my Ward didnt have the brains or interlect to seperate `vile evil muslims` from the rest.
I am not anti-muslim:
Example 1. I think Ali G is "hilarious"
Example 2. There is a Asian/Indian/Muslim girl who works in the Basildon Branch of the Halifax...and she looks like a Supermodel
Example 3. I am `sort of mates` with a muslim bloke...he owns the Dry Cleaners opposite Laindon Station and I`m in there 2 or 3 times a week.
The guy is Thirty, French and a `westernised muslim`...and you couldnt meet a nicer fella.
Sam knew him first...but now I go in and chat to him for about a hour at a time when I pick up the dry cleaning.
He is obsessed with Page 3 girls, lap dancers and showbiz...he did like Simon Cowell untill I told him The X Factor `queen` was `bent as a nine bob`.
Now every time I go in - he says in a `broken English` accent - "Simon Cowell he is a homosexual" - he`s told all his mates in London and says things like "The more I see him on TV and in the papers I can tell he is a homosexual".
The bloke is hilarious - loves all my jokes - so I really like him - LOL.
He loved my joke about Simon Cowell`s favourite football team being Young Boys of Switzerland...and the guy is so funny chatting up all the housewives and City girls when they pick-up or drop off their dry cleaning...but the fact is `bigots` like the old geezers in Southend Hospital havent got the intelligence to seperate a `good guy` like him from the suicide bombers who infest our inner-cities.
For-the-record...as some people misunderstand what I write...there is nothing wrong in Simon Cowell being `gay`...but what I hate is the fact he denies it...even though everyone in the media knows he `bats for the other side`.
One day as with Sir Cliff Richard and Gary Speed...the truth will come out...it always does...for proof...look no further then vile paedophile Jimmy Saville.
I am a people person...and never been anti-anyone on the `grounds` of race, religion or sexual bias.
My all-time hero David Bowie `bisexual`...my favourite gangsters Reg and Ronnie Kray "gay"...I love comics like Alan Carr...think Stephen Fry is a genuis...and fancy lesbian Lindsay Lohan (in her blonde prison mug shot)...but the difference with them and Mr Cowell...is that they were all honest...whereas Simon Cowell is a closet queen who should `outed`...and stop pretending to be a `bird bandit`.
Passing on my view/beliefs to my children has not been easy...they like me are PROUD of being Working Class but hate low-life chavs...at first it was hard explaining the difference between genuine working class culture and the underclass.
Likewise it was hard explaining how as I`ve NEVER worked in my life...never had a proper job...that I describe myself as "working class".
Even more confusing was my `love` of Mrs Thatcher...not the Tory Party...but I loved the fact she was a `strong woman` who took on the `snobs`.
I aint a Saint...but I have got a `touch of class` about me...and have `loyalty, fair play and decency` in my DNA...as do my children.
My take on life...is I admit not `normal`...I hate druggies who smoke weed or take heroin...but I`m a lifelong supporter of `fast drugs` like speed, coke and E.
I hate low-life petty criminals...but love proper gangsters...but even then I`m pretty selective...I know that The Richardsons were more successful and made much more money then The Krays...but I idolised Reg and Ron because of the showbiz connection.
Likewise I think Dave Courtney is the `top man` of his generation...because of his involvement in the World of Entertainment.
I hope I`ve passed on all of the above `standards` to my children. Both my boys have morals and believe that loyalty is a virtue.
They have great taste in Music, Television, Only Fools And Horses, The Office, The Inbetweeners and we all like the same funnymen - comics like Frankie Boyle, Ricky Gervais, Jimmy Carr, John Bishop, Micky Flannagan, Lee Mack and Kevin Bishop...but they are not clones of me as they also like comedians I cant stand.
Sam for some reason likes Russell Howard - the loonie leftie with a dodgy eye...the sweaty Lee Evans...and Peter Kay.
Adam finds posh boy Jack Whitehall funny.
But we all agree that Michael McIntyre is a "unfunny wanker".
Now my daughter I`ve learned likes The Only Way Is Essex...but she will grow out of that...as did both boys...though they still like Mark Wright.
I do wonder about her taste in music...though for obvious reasons...I hope she dont like JLS or have pictures of them on her bedroom wall.
Sam reckons she`ll be into Beiber...but does she still like The Simpsons?
Saturday, 15 December 2012
Friday, 14 December 2012
A Rod Stewart Haircut Got Me Thinking About My Death
A funny thing happened at the hairdressers yesterday (Supercuts Southend) that got me thinking about my demise and what `memories` I will leave behind.
I said to the girl (blonde, cute, attractive) and sadly YOUNG enough to be my daughter "I want it spikey on top like Rod Stewart".
Instead of replying "Rod who?"...she asked: "Did you see him on TV the other night?"...I said "yeah...are you a fan as well?"
Now here is the `funny` bit she said "No not really...but my Dad was"...I sudenly felt my age...LOL...but it was the sad part of her answer that got me thinking.
She said:
"I always watch whenever he`s on TV...because last year I lost my Dad...who was a massive fan...so whenever I see Rod Stewart or hear his songs I think of my Dad"
That got me thinking...what songs or things will remind my children of me?
But before I continue and get serious...on Page 3 of The Sun was a picture of `Rod the Mod`...which I showed her...and she cut my hair exactly the same.
I walked down Southend High Street "well happy"...but last night Sam said "Oh my God - you having a laugh?"...and Adam chipped in with "What have you done to your hair?"
That to me means it really does look like Rod. I joked "I`m thinking of going blonde again"...but they were not amused...LOL.
The moral of that story..."Yes I refuse to grow old gracefully" LOL...but that young girl (21-23) got me thinking about what singers or songs...Television...famous people...would always remind my children about `their old dad?`
TV: with Sam it would have to be Minder because we watch it together - it`s also his favourite programme...and we both love Arthur Daley.
TV: with Adam I would say it`s The Inbetweeners and The Office. I`ve lost count of how many times we`ve watched both.
The other show we still watch together on TV or DVD is Only Fools And Horses - in 50 years time I believe those TV programmes will still rekindle memories of me.
Plus one programme I `love` and they `hate` is Come Dine With Me - they `slaughter` me for watching it and took the `p***` when I applied to take part...and I am sure that every time its repeated on `Dave` that they`ll think of me.
The funny thing is Pop Culture/TV/Music does stay in your memory forever.
My earliest TV memory is a cop show called Z Cars...and remember crying my eyes out when the Police dog owned by a copper called Fancy Smith died.
That is bizarre on many levels as I grew up hating the police and throughout my teens stood on the North Bank singing the praises of Harry Roberts.
What songs remind me of my Dad?... anything by Al Jolson, Deliah by Tom Jones and The Last Waltz by Englebert Humperdink.
As most Saturday and Sunday mornings I woke up to them blaring out of the lounge.
Old films like The Jolson Story. Jolson Sings Again and Angels With Dirty Faces always remind me of my dad...as does the Match Of The Day theme tune.
But cant think of any song, film or TV show linked to my mum...I`ve been trying my hardest but nothing rings a bell.
There are plenty of things that remind me of my ex-wife...and I`m NOT just talking about her porn movies, Blow Jobs, long legs, pert tits or cute bum...LOL...the list is endless.
Television:
It has to be the Christmas Specials of Only Fools And Horses and The Office...I have `flashbacks` everytime I watch both...if I had the `gift` of David Blaine or the `magic powers` of Dynamo I`d turn back the clock like a shot.
The truth is before I met Julie...to be honest Xmas was a `blur`...and not my favourite time of the year...as a teenager I hated it cos my mates all had a `mum and dad`...and I didnt.
So I would drink lots of Pils Lager...take a lot of little blue pills (speed)...and `pretend` everything was alright.
After my parents split...I `sort of` spent one Christmas with my Dad...and one with my mum...but I did not enjoy it or join in the `phoney family` festive spirit...as it was NOT my Family...there were people in the room who were not `blood relatives`.
In my book...a person who is NOT a blood relative is NOT a relative...simple as that...FACT...end of story...there is NO argument about that.
Once when I went up North to my mums...`blood relatives` of hers were present...as was her husband...NOT my stepdad.
I aint sure if I was 17 or 18...I cant for the life of me remember which Xmas it was...but remember going out Christmas Eve...meeting a girl at a pub disco...dont ask me her name or what she looked like cos I aint got a clue.
But I do remember going back to her place somewhere in Macclesfield and returning to my mums on Boxing Day.
At the time I thought I was doing what any teenage boy who liked `girls and partying` would do...but with hindsight...I dont think I could handle `playing at Happy Families` without my Mum and Dad both being there.
It wasnt the proper Johnson Family Christmas that I had grown up with at 9 Fairview Chase.
The same sort of thing happened the only time I `sort of` had Christmas with my dad...and his Registery Office wife...(NOT my stepmother)...I think I was 19 or Twenty...we were booked into a hotel in either Margate or Ramsgate.
I went off Xmas Eve...met a girl in a local night club...and returned `out of my head` on the afternoon of Christmas Day.
At the time I probally thought I was just being rebelious and `having a laugh`...but again with hindsight its pretty obvious I was `refusing` to join in a phoney family Christmas.
Getting back to why Christmas of 1988 or 1989 was so special...not sure which year it was...but my first Xmas with Julie was my first without drink, drugs or wanting to be reunited with my mum and dad.
In the weeks leading up to that Xmas I remember `obverdossing` on Oranges, Tangerines, Lemsip and Cough mixture to make sure I wasnt ill or had flu over the Christmas Holiday.
That is why the Christmas TV specials of Only Fools And Horses and The Office always remind me of Julie...as does the Rod Stewart classic "You Can Me Dance You Can Make Me Sing"...as it was the first thing she bought me.
From memory WHSmith Southend-on-Sea.
Every time I hear the opening chords...the song has a brilliant intro...for some reason I still think of her and our first Christmas.
Which considering I now hate her...(and she hates me even more)...we are living proof that "the thin line between love and hate"...really does excist...LOL...it also proves that old songs...TV shows...Films...all have the power to bring back `magic moments` and revive old memories.
This is why I know that when I`m "dead and gone"...whenever the boys hear "Anarchy In The UK" or Ziggy Stardust watch Minder, The Office, Only Fools And Horses and The Inbetweeners that they will always think of me.
No doubt...just as I told Sam and Adam that Al Jolson was my Dad`s Hero...they will tell their kids that David Bowie and Rod Stewart were mine.
I said to the girl (blonde, cute, attractive) and sadly YOUNG enough to be my daughter "I want it spikey on top like Rod Stewart".
Instead of replying "Rod who?"...she asked: "Did you see him on TV the other night?"...I said "yeah...are you a fan as well?"
Now here is the `funny` bit she said "No not really...but my Dad was"...I sudenly felt my age...LOL...but it was the sad part of her answer that got me thinking.
She said:
"I always watch whenever he`s on TV...because last year I lost my Dad...who was a massive fan...so whenever I see Rod Stewart or hear his songs I think of my Dad"
That got me thinking...what songs or things will remind my children of me?
But before I continue and get serious...on Page 3 of The Sun was a picture of `Rod the Mod`...which I showed her...and she cut my hair exactly the same.
I walked down Southend High Street "well happy"...but last night Sam said "Oh my God - you having a laugh?"...and Adam chipped in with "What have you done to your hair?"
That to me means it really does look like Rod. I joked "I`m thinking of going blonde again"...but they were not amused...LOL.
The moral of that story..."Yes I refuse to grow old gracefully" LOL...but that young girl (21-23) got me thinking about what singers or songs...Television...famous people...would always remind my children about `their old dad?`
TV: with Sam it would have to be Minder because we watch it together - it`s also his favourite programme...and we both love Arthur Daley.
TV: with Adam I would say it`s The Inbetweeners and The Office. I`ve lost count of how many times we`ve watched both.
The other show we still watch together on TV or DVD is Only Fools And Horses - in 50 years time I believe those TV programmes will still rekindle memories of me.
Plus one programme I `love` and they `hate` is Come Dine With Me - they `slaughter` me for watching it and took the `p***` when I applied to take part...and I am sure that every time its repeated on `Dave` that they`ll think of me.
The funny thing is Pop Culture/TV/Music does stay in your memory forever.
My earliest TV memory is a cop show called Z Cars...and remember crying my eyes out when the Police dog owned by a copper called Fancy Smith died.
That is bizarre on many levels as I grew up hating the police and throughout my teens stood on the North Bank singing the praises of Harry Roberts.
What songs remind me of my Dad?... anything by Al Jolson, Deliah by Tom Jones and The Last Waltz by Englebert Humperdink.
As most Saturday and Sunday mornings I woke up to them blaring out of the lounge.
Old films like The Jolson Story. Jolson Sings Again and Angels With Dirty Faces always remind me of my dad...as does the Match Of The Day theme tune.
But cant think of any song, film or TV show linked to my mum...I`ve been trying my hardest but nothing rings a bell.
There are plenty of things that remind me of my ex-wife...and I`m NOT just talking about her porn movies, Blow Jobs, long legs, pert tits or cute bum...LOL...the list is endless.
Television:
It has to be the Christmas Specials of Only Fools And Horses and The Office...I have `flashbacks` everytime I watch both...if I had the `gift` of David Blaine or the `magic powers` of Dynamo I`d turn back the clock like a shot.
The truth is before I met Julie...to be honest Xmas was a `blur`...and not my favourite time of the year...as a teenager I hated it cos my mates all had a `mum and dad`...and I didnt.
So I would drink lots of Pils Lager...take a lot of little blue pills (speed)...and `pretend` everything was alright.
After my parents split...I `sort of` spent one Christmas with my Dad...and one with my mum...but I did not enjoy it or join in the `phoney family` festive spirit...as it was NOT my Family...there were people in the room who were not `blood relatives`.
In my book...a person who is NOT a blood relative is NOT a relative...simple as that...FACT...end of story...there is NO argument about that.
Once when I went up North to my mums...`blood relatives` of hers were present...as was her husband...NOT my stepdad.
I aint sure if I was 17 or 18...I cant for the life of me remember which Xmas it was...but remember going out Christmas Eve...meeting a girl at a pub disco...dont ask me her name or what she looked like cos I aint got a clue.
But I do remember going back to her place somewhere in Macclesfield and returning to my mums on Boxing Day.
At the time I thought I was doing what any teenage boy who liked `girls and partying` would do...but with hindsight...I dont think I could handle `playing at Happy Families` without my Mum and Dad both being there.
It wasnt the proper Johnson Family Christmas that I had grown up with at 9 Fairview Chase.
The same sort of thing happened the only time I `sort of` had Christmas with my dad...and his Registery Office wife...(NOT my stepmother)...I think I was 19 or Twenty...we were booked into a hotel in either Margate or Ramsgate.
I went off Xmas Eve...met a girl in a local night club...and returned `out of my head` on the afternoon of Christmas Day.
At the time I probally thought I was just being rebelious and `having a laugh`...but again with hindsight its pretty obvious I was `refusing` to join in a phoney family Christmas.
Getting back to why Christmas of 1988 or 1989 was so special...not sure which year it was...but my first Xmas with Julie was my first without drink, drugs or wanting to be reunited with my mum and dad.
In the weeks leading up to that Xmas I remember `obverdossing` on Oranges, Tangerines, Lemsip and Cough mixture to make sure I wasnt ill or had flu over the Christmas Holiday.
That is why the Christmas TV specials of Only Fools And Horses and The Office always remind me of Julie...as does the Rod Stewart classic "You Can Me Dance You Can Make Me Sing"...as it was the first thing she bought me.
From memory WHSmith Southend-on-Sea.
Every time I hear the opening chords...the song has a brilliant intro...for some reason I still think of her and our first Christmas.
Which considering I now hate her...(and she hates me even more)...we are living proof that "the thin line between love and hate"...really does excist...LOL...it also proves that old songs...TV shows...Films...all have the power to bring back `magic moments` and revive old memories.
This is why I know that when I`m "dead and gone"...whenever the boys hear "Anarchy In The UK" or Ziggy Stardust watch Minder, The Office, Only Fools And Horses and The Inbetweeners that they will always think of me.
No doubt...just as I told Sam and Adam that Al Jolson was my Dad`s Hero...they will tell their kids that David Bowie and Rod Stewart were mine.
Saturday, 8 December 2012
A Never Ending Story
When I started this autobiography I knew the beginning...the middle...and I thought the end...but things keep happening and the Final Chapter is continuosly overtaken by events.
What started life as THE GANGSTER OF SLANG...evolved into THE PUNK POET and is now "COCKNEY REBEL AND PUNK POET" with another updated ending. But this time it really is the `final curtain`...I have to deliver because I`ve spent the advance.
This week much has happened...Monday evening/Tuesday morning hospital...Wednesday The High Court...Thursday signed a Magazine `deal` and Friday I find out my daughter is growing up into a very "beautiful young woman". (with dodgy taste in TV - LOL)...and according to people who know her she is also "a lovely girl"...I`m so PROUD...I really am...but as I only ever deal in the TRUTH...I have to say "athough she is by birth 50% mine...with half my DNA...personality...character...she is...I have to admit "a credit to her MUM".
At first I was a bit `concerned` about her choice of `hero`...LOL...but then again when I was 12...my idols were David Bowie, Georgie Best, Rod Stewart, The Kray Twins, (the Adam Faith character in Budgie) and The Great Train Robbers...they still are...but unlike me...I`m pretty sure she`ll grow out of `worshipping` Amy Childs...it could of been worse...she could of liked the fat blonde ugly tub of lard...who shouldnt be let out of the house...let alone appear on TV.
Various people have told me my daughter was a "little smasher"...but yesterday I saw it for myself.
Good and bad news from the Hospital...my operation will be in the New Year...probably the end of January...BUT I have to change my diet!
They were not impressed when I revealed my daily intake...which is...and has been for about five years.
6 bottles of Orange Lucozade
2 cans of Red Bull
A boost bar
Marmite on toast
Peanut Butter / French stick
Milky Coffee with 3 sugars
McDonald Milkshake
I have NOT had any of the above since Thursday...and it feels like I`m going "Cold Turkey"...as my body adjusts to Special K...Cornflakes...Fruit...Ribena and skimmed milk.
The Consultant said that my `heart condition` is part hereditary (thanx dad)...part `poor diet`...and the great news...and I quote "Stress Related"...I have that in writing...so my illness is partly down to my ex-wife and porno star julie taylor johnson...her `partner in crime` and CORRUPT Essex County Council Social Worker peter brown.
This week I also found time to bring THREE new cases at The High Court...one in Basildon and another at Southend.
THE HIGH COURT
Granted permission...thank to the 3517 documents CORRUPT Essex County Council...were ordered to handover by the Court...to appeal against the Family and Divorce verdicts from 2008.
I can appeal `out of time` because I proved I only obtained the `new evidence` (3517 documents) in September 2012.
And more "good news"...because I`m on the official Government Sick List...I get all my legal fees paid by the State.
I also started fresh proceedings against Essex County Council...and this time I`m also personally suing CORRUPT Social Workers Peter Brown...Andrew Haley...Dave Barron...all three if it was 1939 would be proud paid-up members of the Nazi Party.
All three are lying bastards...scum of the earth...and CORRUPT.
AND I HAVE THE DOCUMENTS TO PROVE IT.
Basildon Court:
On behalf of Adam Johnson I started legal proceedings against Essex County Council Social Services.
Southend Court
New claim against julie taylor johnson for "slander"...as I was told on good authority...that the former porn star is spreading `false allegations` about my medical condition.
She was warned in Court...on 31st October 2012..."In future watch what you say about Mr Johnson".
The Judge said to personally inform him of any new allegations.
Well the ex-pub stripper has been telling people "Garry is not really ill"..."he hasn`t had a heart attack"...and "the Judge doesnt believe he`s really ill".
This time she has gone to far...as I submitted all the medical proof from both Basildon and Southend Hospital...evidence from Cardiac Consultant Dr Davies (Southend) and Professor Ritchie (Basildon).
So it is not my word she is doubting...she is questioning the honesty, professional reputation and verdicts of top medical people...to my knowledge...JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON does not have any expertise in diagnosing `heart disease...and as far as I know...her only `link` to medical matters and nursing...is dressing up as a `naughty nurse` and letting me film her stripping off.
I have her `banged to rights`...as she is not only slandering me...she is also smearing the reputation of medical professionals.
As Julie Taylor Johnson spreads her lies about my 100% `genuine illness`...she is unaware that my HEART ATTACK is not only confirmed by medical experts but was witnessed by a Judge...who also saw Sam and me being driven off in the ambulance.
So this time "we have her".
I aint liking this `new diet`...and dont want this operation...but I will stick to the menu...and go under the knife...because I have many things to inspire me...and `kill my nerves`.
1. My Children
2. To continue my cases against the CORRUPT peter brown.
3. I have to live at least a day longer than my former in-laws...I want to be alive so I can celebrate them dying.
I will party like I`ve never partied before when I hear one of them is dead. I will feel like the Jews felt when Hitler topped himself.
The parents of Julie Taylor Johnson hated me for 15 years...since 2005 they have told lies about me...and I have 3517 documents to prove that.
They also allowed perverted pimp richard grimson into their home at 1 Medoc Close Pitsea...and `treated him like a new son-in-law` during `family get-togethers` at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford.
The taylors are pure evil...and the sooner they die the better...it will also be a great day for me personally because I know the absolute pain it will cause my ex-wife.
At last she will be getting a taste of her own medicine...and find out how much...being seperated...from your own "flesh and blood" really hurts.
Let her suffer how I`ve suffered since November 2007...as they say "what goes round comes around" and lets no forget the old saying "If you do bad things to other people - then one day bad things will be done to you".
But the thing is Julie`s LOSS will be forever...mine is only temporary...when her parents die they wont be coming back...but one day...and that day is getting CLOSER every day...I will be reunited with my daughter...and she will know the TRUTH about everything...grimson, flemming, prevost, the taylors and the williams SCUM from Wales...how they all conspired to protect a borderline paedophile...I have the documents to prove it...plus handwritten timed and dated letters from tony taylor...sharon williams...where they REFUSED to condemn the perverted behaviour of richard grimson.
This is why I will keep taking my medication...stick to the rabbit food...and have the open heart surgery...when I`m hungry...when I`m scared to bits...I will just think to myself "Dont give in...you gotta be around to enjoy the day/days her parents die"
In my mind there is no greater incentive for me to stay alive.
I want the perverted pimp richard grimson DEAD...I want sally prevost/griffin DEAD...but more than anything I want tony and joyce taylor DEAD.
What started life as THE GANGSTER OF SLANG...evolved into THE PUNK POET and is now "COCKNEY REBEL AND PUNK POET" with another updated ending. But this time it really is the `final curtain`...I have to deliver because I`ve spent the advance.
This week much has happened...Monday evening/Tuesday morning hospital...Wednesday The High Court...Thursday signed a Magazine `deal` and Friday I find out my daughter is growing up into a very "beautiful young woman". (with dodgy taste in TV - LOL)...and according to people who know her she is also "a lovely girl"...I`m so PROUD...I really am...but as I only ever deal in the TRUTH...I have to say "athough she is by birth 50% mine...with half my DNA...personality...character...she is...I have to admit "a credit to her MUM".
At first I was a bit `concerned` about her choice of `hero`...LOL...but then again when I was 12...my idols were David Bowie, Georgie Best, Rod Stewart, The Kray Twins, (the Adam Faith character in Budgie) and The Great Train Robbers...they still are...but unlike me...I`m pretty sure she`ll grow out of `worshipping` Amy Childs...it could of been worse...she could of liked the fat blonde ugly tub of lard...who shouldnt be let out of the house...let alone appear on TV.
Various people have told me my daughter was a "little smasher"...but yesterday I saw it for myself.
Good and bad news from the Hospital...my operation will be in the New Year...probably the end of January...BUT I have to change my diet!
They were not impressed when I revealed my daily intake...which is...and has been for about five years.
6 bottles of Orange Lucozade
2 cans of Red Bull
A boost bar
Marmite on toast
Peanut Butter / French stick
Milky Coffee with 3 sugars
McDonald Milkshake
I have NOT had any of the above since Thursday...and it feels like I`m going "Cold Turkey"...as my body adjusts to Special K...Cornflakes...Fruit...Ribena and skimmed milk.
The Consultant said that my `heart condition` is part hereditary (thanx dad)...part `poor diet`...and the great news...and I quote "Stress Related"...I have that in writing...so my illness is partly down to my ex-wife and porno star julie taylor johnson...her `partner in crime` and CORRUPT Essex County Council Social Worker peter brown.
This week I also found time to bring THREE new cases at The High Court...one in Basildon and another at Southend.
THE HIGH COURT
Granted permission...thank to the 3517 documents CORRUPT Essex County Council...were ordered to handover by the Court...to appeal against the Family and Divorce verdicts from 2008.
I can appeal `out of time` because I proved I only obtained the `new evidence` (3517 documents) in September 2012.
And more "good news"...because I`m on the official Government Sick List...I get all my legal fees paid by the State.
I also started fresh proceedings against Essex County Council...and this time I`m also personally suing CORRUPT Social Workers Peter Brown...Andrew Haley...Dave Barron...all three if it was 1939 would be proud paid-up members of the Nazi Party.
All three are lying bastards...scum of the earth...and CORRUPT.
AND I HAVE THE DOCUMENTS TO PROVE IT.
Basildon Court:
On behalf of Adam Johnson I started legal proceedings against Essex County Council Social Services.
Southend Court
New claim against julie taylor johnson for "slander"...as I was told on good authority...that the former porn star is spreading `false allegations` about my medical condition.
She was warned in Court...on 31st October 2012..."In future watch what you say about Mr Johnson".
The Judge said to personally inform him of any new allegations.
Well the ex-pub stripper has been telling people "Garry is not really ill"..."he hasn`t had a heart attack"...and "the Judge doesnt believe he`s really ill".
This time she has gone to far...as I submitted all the medical proof from both Basildon and Southend Hospital...evidence from Cardiac Consultant Dr Davies (Southend) and Professor Ritchie (Basildon).
So it is not my word she is doubting...she is questioning the honesty, professional reputation and verdicts of top medical people...to my knowledge...JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON does not have any expertise in diagnosing `heart disease...and as far as I know...her only `link` to medical matters and nursing...is dressing up as a `naughty nurse` and letting me film her stripping off.
I have her `banged to rights`...as she is not only slandering me...she is also smearing the reputation of medical professionals.
As Julie Taylor Johnson spreads her lies about my 100% `genuine illness`...she is unaware that my HEART ATTACK is not only confirmed by medical experts but was witnessed by a Judge...who also saw Sam and me being driven off in the ambulance.
So this time "we have her".
I aint liking this `new diet`...and dont want this operation...but I will stick to the menu...and go under the knife...because I have many things to inspire me...and `kill my nerves`.
1. My Children
2. To continue my cases against the CORRUPT peter brown.
3. I have to live at least a day longer than my former in-laws...I want to be alive so I can celebrate them dying.
I will party like I`ve never partied before when I hear one of them is dead. I will feel like the Jews felt when Hitler topped himself.
The parents of Julie Taylor Johnson hated me for 15 years...since 2005 they have told lies about me...and I have 3517 documents to prove that.
They also allowed perverted pimp richard grimson into their home at 1 Medoc Close Pitsea...and `treated him like a new son-in-law` during `family get-togethers` at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford.
The taylors are pure evil...and the sooner they die the better...it will also be a great day for me personally because I know the absolute pain it will cause my ex-wife.
At last she will be getting a taste of her own medicine...and find out how much...being seperated...from your own "flesh and blood" really hurts.
Let her suffer how I`ve suffered since November 2007...as they say "what goes round comes around" and lets no forget the old saying "If you do bad things to other people - then one day bad things will be done to you".
But the thing is Julie`s LOSS will be forever...mine is only temporary...when her parents die they wont be coming back...but one day...and that day is getting CLOSER every day...I will be reunited with my daughter...and she will know the TRUTH about everything...grimson, flemming, prevost, the taylors and the williams SCUM from Wales...how they all conspired to protect a borderline paedophile...I have the documents to prove it...plus handwritten timed and dated letters from tony taylor...sharon williams...where they REFUSED to condemn the perverted behaviour of richard grimson.
This is why I will keep taking my medication...stick to the rabbit food...and have the open heart surgery...when I`m hungry...when I`m scared to bits...I will just think to myself "Dont give in...you gotta be around to enjoy the day/days her parents die"
In my mind there is no greater incentive for me to stay alive.
I want the perverted pimp richard grimson DEAD...I want sally prevost/griffin DEAD...but more than anything I want tony and joyce taylor DEAD.
Friday, 23 November 2012
www.Essex.gov.uk
News about Essex County Council Social Workers. In this Chapter I will name three Essex County Council Social Workers - peter brown...dave barron and andrew haley...I will expose all 3 as corrupt liars and claim that one of them is `mentally ill...a danger to society...and likely to murder his wife and kill his children`.
If it was 1939 all three would be proud, paid up members of the Nazi Party...Essex Social Services is a vile combination of the Gestapo and the KGB...and I have 3517 documents...as do the media to prove it...ECC is a `corrupt organisation` that ignores the safety of children and protects perverts like richard grimson...and I have 3517 official Essex County Council documents to prove every one of my allegations...my hope is that ECC will dispute the content of their OWN documents and sue me for libel...as then every single fact will be out in the open!
Have they got the guts to sue?
WATCH THIS SPACE.
If it was 1939 all three would be proud, paid up members of the Nazi Party...Essex Social Services is a vile combination of the Gestapo and the KGB...and I have 3517 documents...as do the media to prove it...ECC is a `corrupt organisation` that ignores the safety of children and protects perverts like richard grimson...and I have 3517 official Essex County Council documents to prove every one of my allegations...my hope is that ECC will dispute the content of their OWN documents and sue me for libel...as then every single fact will be out in the open!
Have they got the guts to sue?
WATCH THIS SPACE.
Tuesday, 20 November 2012
My Legacy
My death will also be my legacy...it will prove I have always told the truth. Since 2005 my ex-wife has blamed everything on me and ignored her own selfish behaviour and that of her perverted boyfriend richard grimson.
In this my FINAL BLOG I will name `names` and reveal who told me what about JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and her affair with perverted pimp richard grimson.
I will break the sacred rule of Tabloid Journalism and identify my sources. Read on and you will learn who first told me about their `vile and sordid` relationship.
Which of grimson`s relatives exposed his `perverted past`...the name of the Doctor who treated her for the STD she caught off the former pimp.
The date of the day she went to Southend County Court in 2006 and ADMITTED to starring in FOUR pornographic films.
I will give contact details of the `fan` who knew JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON when she briefly worked as a Pub Stripper...he will also review her porno movie `BASILDON BABE` which he describes as "pure filth".
I`ll also reveal extracts of a Legal Letter from Nelson Guest Solicitors confirming it was NOT me who posted the porno clips and naked photographs of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON that appear on the Internet.
None of what appears on `UK wives Hamster` has any connection to me!
The letter dated March 2010 confirms I was found "not guilty" by Basildon Police...this was after JULIE personally gave them porno pictures of herself...either Naked or wearing nothing but Black Stockings and a smile...and LYING that they were connected to me.
As I told the Police...when they spread out the porno photographs on a desk...and asked "Do you recognise the woman in the pictures?"
Well I couldnt lie...so I answered honestly: "Well yes...of course I do...you know I do...I was married to her for 15 years but they are nothing to do with me" adding "And it wasnt me who put them pictures or her pornographic movies on the Internet".
I added "Why dont you speak to her boyfriend richard grimson?" All of the above can be confirmed by both the Police who taped the interview...and my Solicitor Ian Ashby...who was at my side throughout.
The slag has always claimed I stopped the boys from talking to her...when I`m dead...and they still refuse to have any form of contact with her...will she still blame me?
ADULTERY:
I was not there when the Shotgate slut was discovered that Saturday afternoon half-naked and having sex with richard grimson in the lounge of 22 Bridge Road Wickford.
It was not me who beat up my eldest son up on the day she left...it was not me who violently threatened and verbally sexually abused three young children...that was all down to former pimp richard grimson who JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON started an affair with in October 2004.
All facts I have stated on oath and at The High Court in London.
I am confident both boys will NEVER betray my memory...I think the drugs are making me mellow or `soft`...as I`m not entirely happy with my earlier description of Julie as a "slag" or "slut"...the truth is I knew her for a long time...and `loved her to bits`...from the first time I met her in 1989 to the last time I was alone with her in 2005...so for-the-record JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON isnt a natural "slag or slut"...and doesnt deserve that title.
JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON has only become a "slut" since her first involvement with former pimp grimson in 2004... and because of the company she now keeps...JULIE has surrounded herself with a gang of `mannish-looking...overweight slags...mutton dressed as lamb sluts...with dinner lady arms...double-chins...and `footballers legs`...`proper low-life`...who are a vile and unnatractive combination of the "fat slags" from Viz...and the dog ugly scrubbers from `Geordie Shore`.
Any bloke who fancies her foul-mouthed friends must have the eyesight of Stevie Wonder.
JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...its sad to say but true...but because of her involvement with pervert grimson `lost` any right to a `respectable reputation`.
No decent woman would leave her family for a PIMP...or `fall in love` with a self-confessed CHILD ABUSER.
The pervert admitted his vile behaviour to the Police and his own relative Emma Murray revealed he had a 15-year history of `bullying, threatening, intimidating women and children`...adding "My own neice is terrified of him"
And the Police confirmed that at the same time JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON started her affair with grimson in September/October 2004 that the pervert was reported to them by a `single woman` who lived opposite him at 4O Hyde Way Wickford Essex for `threatening/intimidating` her.
Those facts are the GENUINE reasons why MY boys will NEVER talk to Julie Taylor Johnson...they will NEVER betray their dead Dad.
Now for the first time I will reveal the name of the person who originally told me about the affair between JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and the perverted pimp....I have not named him before...because I aint a grass by nature...but as I`m dying I`ll "come clean"...before getting a phone call from Emma Grimson informing me of the affair between her common-law husband and JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...I had been given the same news by Black cab driver Aiden Doyle.
He said "Gal, I knew about it for months...saw them together loads of times...and he was always all over her" adding "I should of said something but didnt want to get involved...had I known then grimson was a pervert I would of said something"
I was told about the affair by Michelle Alexander...the wife of a mate...Julie confided in her during a conversation at Basildon Athletics Stadium about 2 weeks before she left.
It was only after JULIE left that I discovered other facts...and so did my boys...we found out that between January and June 2005 she was given false alibis by ginger slag Sally Prevost (Griffin).
Sam spoke to `ginger nut` on the phone who revealed "I`ve only seen your mum twice since Christmas"...and NOT the EIGHT times claimed by JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON.
The fact is Sally `ginger slag` Prevost was in one way or another a major part in my sons `losing` their family...she provided JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON with EIGHT alibis to meet grimson...the ginger slag admits to "two"...but I dont believe her and more importantly nor do my sons.
We know she once provided a alibi linked to the `funeral` of a Walthamstow Fruit and Veg man...I got that from a very reliable source...and we also know that Ginger met up with JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and the perverted pimp in a Braintree Beer Garden.
My Legacy is also built on telling the TRUTH.
PORN STAR:
JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON can lie from now until I draw my last breath that she never `starred` in porno films between 1992 and 2004...but the FACT is at Southend County Court in March 2006 she ADMITTED to starring in FOUR pornographic movies.
The case was SS05F01533 and was heard by HHJ Yelton
A copy of the Court document will be printed in the book...as will a copy of her official medical records which confirm JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON caught a STD from grimson in December 2004 and that she started having Depo-Prevaro Birth Control injections.
But despite all the `crimes` of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and because I genuinely believe she was under the evil influence of a perverted pimp and ginger slag...I keep coming back to the final moments of the classic Jimmy Cagney movie `Angels With Dirty Faces` (the favourite movie of my life-long heroes REG & RONNIE KRAY).
Cagney plays a Gangster about to face the electric chair...he aint scared...he really aint...but his childhood friend...played by Pat O`Brien is a Priest...who convinces the Cagney character to `act scared`...to stop teenage tearaways in his flock idolising the charismatic `Public Enemy One`.
The Gangster starts to cry and shouts "I dont want to die"...the young hoodlums think he`s a coward and turn on their hero.
The Cagney character sacrifed his legacy for the benefit of others...but that was a Hollywood film...this is real life...and although the medication is making me `mellow`...I dont think I can do a "Jimmy Cagney".
I can not betray my principles...I could not die with that on my conscience...I have my beliefs...I have "right on my side" and I owe it to my loyal boys not to weaken.
I must stay 100% strong right up unto the end. I must ensure with every fibre in my body that this situation is on-going...it must NEVER end and must be `passed on` to the grandchildren of my grandchildren.
The quote "time is a great healer" is BOLLOCKS...the Jews will never forget the Holocaust...blacks will never forget there the descendants of slaves...and future generations of Johnsons will NEVER forgive or forget the evil behaviour of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON, richard grimson or peter brown.
Its true I wrote the PUNK classic Suburban Rebels...discovered THE STONE ROSES...shook hands with DAVID BOWIE, CHARLIE KRAY and GEORGIE BEST...directed and filmed JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON in porn films like BASILDON BABE and SHOTGATE SLUT...but my greatest legacy is leaving behind the 2 boys who will NEVER betray the memory of their Dad.
NEVER in a million years will they ever talk to JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON..her parents, sally prevost or paul wellings...they have made me that promise...and I know they will NEVER let me down.
THAT IS WHY I AINT SCARED OF DYING...my sons will NEVER betray me...they will NEVER call the next husband of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON "Dad"...I have told them to fight it in the Courts if Julie Taylor Johnson ever refers to her husband as the `stepfather` of my sons...
THE fact is my sons will NEVER accept any of her boyfriends/husband as a replacement for me.
The `gene` of forgiveness is NOT in our DNA...and as proof of that fact...when we found out that the traitor Charles Alfred Johnson allowed JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON into his house we cut off all ties...when we found out that Mary Moran attended the funeral of Fred Prevost and stood in the same room as JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON we stopped all contact.
So even when I`m DEAD...there will be no `Ceasefire` in the war against Julie Taylor Johnson, her parents and the SCUM from Wales...as they all conspired to protect perverted pimp richard grimson...that crime will NEVER be forgotten.
Both boys know that as soon as I`m in Heaven...Julie Taylor Johnson and her family will try and pressure them into betrayal...but BOTH have given me their word that they will NOT weaken or betray the memory of their DAD.
PUB STRIPPER:
JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON also tells people she NEVER worked as `pub stripper" in the East End of London...but she is lying...just as she LIED about not starring in PORN MOVIES...as there is also evidence confirming she was a PUB STRIPPER.
Julie personally told me she was a stripper during the filming of `Dirty Dancer`...she would also dance around the bedroom saying "I`ve still got it".
But the fact is - that does not mean she was a dirty pub stripper - as Julie is denying it - and I cant prove she was - as I never saw her perform in public...but one man who did is Nicholas Lightbown.
I do not know the man and have never spoken to him - but like Emma Murray the relative of perverted pimp grimson - he contacted me after reading THE PUNK POET.
He wrote...and I still have his timed and dated email..."I recall Julie being held in very high regard at the time...in pubs like The Commercial Tavern, The Ten Bells and Sir John Franklin"
I answered his email with suspicion.
He replied:
"I understand your "paranoia" - but to prove I`m genuine...my phone number is 020 7481 9038 and my mobile is 07969 258113"
My friend Toni King spoke to him on the phone - he seemed genuine as he perfectly described Julie - as she looked when I met her in 1989 and more importantly how she looked betwen 1992 and 2004...he told Toni he had a copy of the DVD "The Best Of Basildon Babe JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON" which he described as `filth` and asked to buy copies of other films.
So it is NOT my word against that of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...I have provided independent evidence and a eye-witness account.
In this my FINAL BLOG I will name `names` and reveal who told me what about JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and her affair with perverted pimp richard grimson.
I will break the sacred rule of Tabloid Journalism and identify my sources. Read on and you will learn who first told me about their `vile and sordid` relationship.
Which of grimson`s relatives exposed his `perverted past`...the name of the Doctor who treated her for the STD she caught off the former pimp.
The date of the day she went to Southend County Court in 2006 and ADMITTED to starring in FOUR pornographic films.
I will give contact details of the `fan` who knew JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON when she briefly worked as a Pub Stripper...he will also review her porno movie `BASILDON BABE` which he describes as "pure filth".
I`ll also reveal extracts of a Legal Letter from Nelson Guest Solicitors confirming it was NOT me who posted the porno clips and naked photographs of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON that appear on the Internet.
None of what appears on `UK wives Hamster` has any connection to me!
The letter dated March 2010 confirms I was found "not guilty" by Basildon Police...this was after JULIE personally gave them porno pictures of herself...either Naked or wearing nothing but Black Stockings and a smile...and LYING that they were connected to me.
As I told the Police...when they spread out the porno photographs on a desk...and asked "Do you recognise the woman in the pictures?"
Well I couldnt lie...so I answered honestly: "Well yes...of course I do...you know I do...I was married to her for 15 years but they are nothing to do with me" adding "And it wasnt me who put them pictures or her pornographic movies on the Internet".
I added "Why dont you speak to her boyfriend richard grimson?" All of the above can be confirmed by both the Police who taped the interview...and my Solicitor Ian Ashby...who was at my side throughout.
The slag has always claimed I stopped the boys from talking to her...when I`m dead...and they still refuse to have any form of contact with her...will she still blame me?
ADULTERY:
I was not there when the Shotgate slut was discovered that Saturday afternoon half-naked and having sex with richard grimson in the lounge of 22 Bridge Road Wickford.
It was not me who beat up my eldest son up on the day she left...it was not me who violently threatened and verbally sexually abused three young children...that was all down to former pimp richard grimson who JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON started an affair with in October 2004.
All facts I have stated on oath and at The High Court in London.
I am confident both boys will NEVER betray my memory...I think the drugs are making me mellow or `soft`...as I`m not entirely happy with my earlier description of Julie as a "slag" or "slut"...the truth is I knew her for a long time...and `loved her to bits`...from the first time I met her in 1989 to the last time I was alone with her in 2005...so for-the-record JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON isnt a natural "slag or slut"...and doesnt deserve that title.
JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON has only become a "slut" since her first involvement with former pimp grimson in 2004... and because of the company she now keeps...JULIE has surrounded herself with a gang of `mannish-looking...overweight slags...mutton dressed as lamb sluts...with dinner lady arms...double-chins...and `footballers legs`...`proper low-life`...who are a vile and unnatractive combination of the "fat slags" from Viz...and the dog ugly scrubbers from `Geordie Shore`.
Any bloke who fancies her foul-mouthed friends must have the eyesight of Stevie Wonder.
JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...its sad to say but true...but because of her involvement with pervert grimson `lost` any right to a `respectable reputation`.
No decent woman would leave her family for a PIMP...or `fall in love` with a self-confessed CHILD ABUSER.
The pervert admitted his vile behaviour to the Police and his own relative Emma Murray revealed he had a 15-year history of `bullying, threatening, intimidating women and children`...adding "My own neice is terrified of him"
And the Police confirmed that at the same time JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON started her affair with grimson in September/October 2004 that the pervert was reported to them by a `single woman` who lived opposite him at 4O Hyde Way Wickford Essex for `threatening/intimidating` her.
Those facts are the GENUINE reasons why MY boys will NEVER talk to Julie Taylor Johnson...they will NEVER betray their dead Dad.
Now for the first time I will reveal the name of the person who originally told me about the affair between JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and the perverted pimp....I have not named him before...because I aint a grass by nature...but as I`m dying I`ll "come clean"...before getting a phone call from Emma Grimson informing me of the affair between her common-law husband and JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...I had been given the same news by Black cab driver Aiden Doyle.
He said "Gal, I knew about it for months...saw them together loads of times...and he was always all over her" adding "I should of said something but didnt want to get involved...had I known then grimson was a pervert I would of said something"
I was told about the affair by Michelle Alexander...the wife of a mate...Julie confided in her during a conversation at Basildon Athletics Stadium about 2 weeks before she left.
It was only after JULIE left that I discovered other facts...and so did my boys...we found out that between January and June 2005 she was given false alibis by ginger slag Sally Prevost (Griffin).
Sam spoke to `ginger nut` on the phone who revealed "I`ve only seen your mum twice since Christmas"...and NOT the EIGHT times claimed by JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON.
The fact is Sally `ginger slag` Prevost was in one way or another a major part in my sons `losing` their family...she provided JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON with EIGHT alibis to meet grimson...the ginger slag admits to "two"...but I dont believe her and more importantly nor do my sons.
We know she once provided a alibi linked to the `funeral` of a Walthamstow Fruit and Veg man...I got that from a very reliable source...and we also know that Ginger met up with JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and the perverted pimp in a Braintree Beer Garden.
My Legacy is also built on telling the TRUTH.
PORN STAR:
JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON can lie from now until I draw my last breath that she never `starred` in porno films between 1992 and 2004...but the FACT is at Southend County Court in March 2006 she ADMITTED to starring in FOUR pornographic movies.
The case was SS05F01533 and was heard by HHJ Yelton
A copy of the Court document will be printed in the book...as will a copy of her official medical records which confirm JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON caught a STD from grimson in December 2004 and that she started having Depo-Prevaro Birth Control injections.
But despite all the `crimes` of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and because I genuinely believe she was under the evil influence of a perverted pimp and ginger slag...I keep coming back to the final moments of the classic Jimmy Cagney movie `Angels With Dirty Faces` (the favourite movie of my life-long heroes REG & RONNIE KRAY).
Cagney plays a Gangster about to face the electric chair...he aint scared...he really aint...but his childhood friend...played by Pat O`Brien is a Priest...who convinces the Cagney character to `act scared`...to stop teenage tearaways in his flock idolising the charismatic `Public Enemy One`.
The Gangster starts to cry and shouts "I dont want to die"...the young hoodlums think he`s a coward and turn on their hero.
The Cagney character sacrifed his legacy for the benefit of others...but that was a Hollywood film...this is real life...and although the medication is making me `mellow`...I dont think I can do a "Jimmy Cagney".
I can not betray my principles...I could not die with that on my conscience...I have my beliefs...I have "right on my side" and I owe it to my loyal boys not to weaken.
I must stay 100% strong right up unto the end. I must ensure with every fibre in my body that this situation is on-going...it must NEVER end and must be `passed on` to the grandchildren of my grandchildren.
The quote "time is a great healer" is BOLLOCKS...the Jews will never forget the Holocaust...blacks will never forget there the descendants of slaves...and future generations of Johnsons will NEVER forgive or forget the evil behaviour of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON, richard grimson or peter brown.
Its true I wrote the PUNK classic Suburban Rebels...discovered THE STONE ROSES...shook hands with DAVID BOWIE, CHARLIE KRAY and GEORGIE BEST...directed and filmed JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON in porn films like BASILDON BABE and SHOTGATE SLUT...but my greatest legacy is leaving behind the 2 boys who will NEVER betray the memory of their Dad.
NEVER in a million years will they ever talk to JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON..her parents, sally prevost or paul wellings...they have made me that promise...and I know they will NEVER let me down.
THAT IS WHY I AINT SCARED OF DYING...my sons will NEVER betray me...they will NEVER call the next husband of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON "Dad"...I have told them to fight it in the Courts if Julie Taylor Johnson ever refers to her husband as the `stepfather` of my sons...
THE fact is my sons will NEVER accept any of her boyfriends/husband as a replacement for me.
The `gene` of forgiveness is NOT in our DNA...and as proof of that fact...when we found out that the traitor Charles Alfred Johnson allowed JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON into his house we cut off all ties...when we found out that Mary Moran attended the funeral of Fred Prevost and stood in the same room as JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON we stopped all contact.
So even when I`m DEAD...there will be no `Ceasefire` in the war against Julie Taylor Johnson, her parents and the SCUM from Wales...as they all conspired to protect perverted pimp richard grimson...that crime will NEVER be forgotten.
Both boys know that as soon as I`m in Heaven...Julie Taylor Johnson and her family will try and pressure them into betrayal...but BOTH have given me their word that they will NOT weaken or betray the memory of their DAD.
PUB STRIPPER:
JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON also tells people she NEVER worked as `pub stripper" in the East End of London...but she is lying...just as she LIED about not starring in PORN MOVIES...as there is also evidence confirming she was a PUB STRIPPER.
Julie personally told me she was a stripper during the filming of `Dirty Dancer`...she would also dance around the bedroom saying "I`ve still got it".
But the fact is - that does not mean she was a dirty pub stripper - as Julie is denying it - and I cant prove she was - as I never saw her perform in public...but one man who did is Nicholas Lightbown.
I do not know the man and have never spoken to him - but like Emma Murray the relative of perverted pimp grimson - he contacted me after reading THE PUNK POET.
He wrote...and I still have his timed and dated email..."I recall Julie being held in very high regard at the time...in pubs like The Commercial Tavern, The Ten Bells and Sir John Franklin"
I answered his email with suspicion.
He replied:
"I understand your "paranoia" - but to prove I`m genuine...my phone number is 020 7481 9038 and my mobile is 07969 258113"
My friend Toni King spoke to him on the phone - he seemed genuine as he perfectly described Julie - as she looked when I met her in 1989 and more importantly how she looked betwen 1992 and 2004...he told Toni he had a copy of the DVD "The Best Of Basildon Babe JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON" which he described as `filth` and asked to buy copies of other films.
So it is NOT my word against that of JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...I have provided independent evidence and a eye-witness account.
Monday, 19 November 2012
Garry Johnson / Dead Man Walking
This really is the end...I am now officially a "Dead Man Walking"...and when this news is passed by the Court to my ex-wife and her low-life parents...it will be greeted with much joy and celebration...I am giving JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON the best Christmas present she has ever had...but at least I have made some-one happy LOL.
The results of last week`s tests have just come in the post...and they are more of a `Death Warrant` then a Recorded Letter.
Professor A. Richie
Cardiothoracic Surgeon
Essex Cardiothoracic Centre
Basildon Hospital
writes:
I have had a chance to review your coronary angiogram that was carried out at Southend Hospital and can confirm you require coronary artery bypass surgery.
The ECG showed initially ST depression across the chest leads and there was no ST elevation or Q wave formation.
A coronary angiogram demonstrated diffuse calcific triple vessel disease. The dominant right coronary artery has a short proximal 50% stenosis and serious stenoses in the distal segment, the worst of which is causing approximately 50% stenosis. There is severe ostial lesion of the first branch of the posterior LV artery and a more minor stenosis of the second branch of the posterior LV artery. The left main stem is short and unobstructed. The circumflex artery has a 70% proximal stenosis. The LAD is diffusely diseased with a long stenosis in the proximal segment, multiple stenoses in the mid-segment and probably further more mild diffuse disease in the distal segment. There is a high diagonal/intermediate artery which is small in calibre but does contain significant disease proximally. There is much larger second diagonal artery which does not appear to contain flow limiting disease. The LV systolic function is within normal limits.
I need to assess you further as a outpatient at Basildon Hospital as you do require further tests prior to cardiac surgery.
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Well there we go "game set and match" to my ex-wife Julie Taylor Johnson and her `partner in crime` Essex County Council Social Worker Peter Brown who have done everything in their power to kill me with their lies/smears and false allegations since 2005...both will soon have the title of "murderers"...and my sons will always hold those `evil bastards` responsible for my death..
But as they say "every cloud"...all weekend I have been ill...so unwell...that Saturday night both Sam and Adam stayed in to look after me...and both said without any prompting from me "we`ll never talk to her".
Those words were more comforting then any medication...and made me glow as if I was still on morphine.
So even death has it `good points`...true...I will never see my daughter again...but she will have my timed and dated letters to read when she`s older...and conversations with Sam and Adam where she`ll be told the TRUTH about perverted pimp richard grimson and paedophile protectors Peter Brown and ginger slag Sally Prevost/Griffin.
Both my boys have promised they will never talk to Julie Taylor Johnson...when I`m dead they will never betray my memory...they will never call any of her boyfriends "dad"...or give her new husband the title of "step father".
I will always be their Dad - dead or alive - and I will take that thought to my grave.
Knowing that fact and that both boys will NEVER betray me and NEVER talk to Julie Taylor Johnson means I can die with a `smile on my face`...
SAM and ADAM will never betray their Dad.
The results of last week`s tests have just come in the post...and they are more of a `Death Warrant` then a Recorded Letter.
Professor A. Richie
Cardiothoracic Surgeon
Essex Cardiothoracic Centre
Basildon Hospital
writes:
I have had a chance to review your coronary angiogram that was carried out at Southend Hospital and can confirm you require coronary artery bypass surgery.
The ECG showed initially ST depression across the chest leads and there was no ST elevation or Q wave formation.
A coronary angiogram demonstrated diffuse calcific triple vessel disease. The dominant right coronary artery has a short proximal 50% stenosis and serious stenoses in the distal segment, the worst of which is causing approximately 50% stenosis. There is severe ostial lesion of the first branch of the posterior LV artery and a more minor stenosis of the second branch of the posterior LV artery. The left main stem is short and unobstructed. The circumflex artery has a 70% proximal stenosis. The LAD is diffusely diseased with a long stenosis in the proximal segment, multiple stenoses in the mid-segment and probably further more mild diffuse disease in the distal segment. There is a high diagonal/intermediate artery which is small in calibre but does contain significant disease proximally. There is much larger second diagonal artery which does not appear to contain flow limiting disease. The LV systolic function is within normal limits.
I need to assess you further as a outpatient at Basildon Hospital as you do require further tests prior to cardiac surgery.
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Well there we go "game set and match" to my ex-wife Julie Taylor Johnson and her `partner in crime` Essex County Council Social Worker Peter Brown who have done everything in their power to kill me with their lies/smears and false allegations since 2005...both will soon have the title of "murderers"...and my sons will always hold those `evil bastards` responsible for my death..
But as they say "every cloud"...all weekend I have been ill...so unwell...that Saturday night both Sam and Adam stayed in to look after me...and both said without any prompting from me "we`ll never talk to her".
Those words were more comforting then any medication...and made me glow as if I was still on morphine.
So even death has it `good points`...true...I will never see my daughter again...but she will have my timed and dated letters to read when she`s older...and conversations with Sam and Adam where she`ll be told the TRUTH about perverted pimp richard grimson and paedophile protectors Peter Brown and ginger slag Sally Prevost/Griffin.
Both my boys have promised they will never talk to Julie Taylor Johnson...when I`m dead they will never betray my memory...they will never call any of her boyfriends "dad"...or give her new husband the title of "step father".
I will always be their Dad - dead or alive - and I will take that thought to my grave.
Knowing that fact and that both boys will NEVER betray me and NEVER talk to Julie Taylor Johnson means I can die with a `smile on my face`...
SAM and ADAM will never betray their Dad.
Sunday, 11 November 2012
The Last Post
Today is Remberence Sunday and along with Christmay Day and my Children`s Birthdays the most important date in the calendar.
How apt that today is also the day of my final post.
Yesterday I received my Discharge Letter from Southend Hospital...containing the results of my medical tests...and couldnt resist going on Google...not a good idea when your a hypochondriac...as I`m now convinced time is running out.
Southend University Hospital NHS Foundation Trust
Inpatient Discharge Summary - Medical Directorate:
Primary Diagnosis:
Heart Attack
ECG: ST depression in V3-V6 and 1, T wave inversion V1-6, ?LVH
Aniogram:
LMS - diffuse disease distally (50%)
LAD - Long calcified lesion from ostial to mid LAD. Further diffuse disease throughout the course of the LAD
LCx - 80% lesion in proximal Cx
RCA - diffuse moderate disease throughout
LV - mild impairment
Plan: Outpatient tests and appropiate pr-op investigations for CABG
Co-Morbidition:
Gallstones
Hypertension
Hypercholesterolaemia
So am I dying? The answer is "yes".
This will be `music to the ears` of my ex-wife and Essex Social Services...who will both think that Christmas has come early...but that does mean the `fight for justice` is over.
Both my sons have vowed to "carry on the fight".
They will publically `clear my name` and let the world know that their dad was `murdered` by the lies of Julie Taylor Johnson and her partner-in-crime corrupt Social Worker Peter Brown.
My GP and both Basildon and Southend Hospital have confirmed that my `heart condition` is partly caused by stress....and both my sons know the stress was caused by the lies of Julie Taylor Johnson and her co-accused Peter Brown.
Both boys have promised they will never be forgot...and that the facts will be passed onto their own children when they ask about their Grandad.
I have in my possession 3517 documents...given to me by Essex County Council...after the Court ordered them to `come clean`.
These documents confirm everything I have stated since 2005.
They confirm that Richard Grimson...the boyfriend of my ex-wife...was a child abusing pervert and that Julie Taylor Johnson covered-up for him.
The documents confirm she was 100% aware of his behaviour.
I am still waiting for clarification that I can name the person I am about to quote...Essex County Council concede the documents are now my legal property...but my MP John Baron has advised to wait for a Court Order confirming I can `name names`...so for now I will `hold fire`...and not name the `experts` or the `victims` of her boyfriend.
So I will call my first witness...Expert A...she says of Julie Taylor Johnson: "In my view `young people` have been subject to emotional abuse. They have been spoken to in disgraceful and degrading terms...the partner of Ms Johnson appears to have been allowed to `get away` with acting in a reprehensible manner...and Ms Johnson has been less then clear with me about whether she is prepared to condemn outright her partner`s behaviour...which seems to be a matter of fact since he admitted it to the police. When we discuss the matter I find I am very confused about her view"
Those words will forever be a stain on her character and that verdict will follow her to the grave...which is why...she`ll never attend the weddings of my sons or the Christenings of any Johnson Grandchildren. Even in death I will have the last laugh.
Expert B...is Julie Taylor Johnson herself...legal documents reveal that when she told Social Services in 2007 and still tells other people "I never starred in pornographic films" she was in fact lying.
The truth is on 24th March 2006 at Southend County Court Julie Kathleen Johnson admitted on oath in front of His Honour Judge Yelton...case number SS05F01533 to starring in FOUR pornographic films.
Why she only admitted to `four` is a mystery...but at least this legal document confirms I have always told the truth about her `porno past`.
Another document from 2010 also confirms her involvement in the world of Adult Entertainment.
Julie Taylor Johnson lied to the Police that I`d put clips of her porno films on the Internet and sent pornographic photographs of her to friends and work colleagues.
This was an amazing lie as I told the police "I have not spoken to Julie or been alone in a room with her since June 2005...so who-ever took the pictures it wasn`t me.
The whole incident was very embarrassing...the police officers placed naked pictures of Julie Taylor Johnson on the desk...all she was wearing was a smile and black stockings...they asked if I recognised the woman in the photographs...and I replied "Well yes...I was married to her for 15 years but I didnt take those pictures"
I tried to help by saying "her boyfriend Richard Grimson has boasted about taking naked pictures of her while she slept...perhaps you should talk to him"
Adding "but it is nothing to do with me and it wasn`t me who put her porno films on the Internet"
The Police agreed I was innocent and released me without charge...my solicitor Ian Ashby of Nelson Guest wrote: "Mr Johnson was arrested after his ex-wife claimed he posted pornographic films and photographs of her on the Internet...we can tell you that following a police investigation this was found not to be the case and that the allegations were for want of a better way of putting it malicious on the part of her...he has not been subject to any prosecution and it is quite clear that the matter was for want of a better expression manipulated by her to reflect badly upon him but that he had in fact not done anything which could or should be regarded as wrong doing"
So I was proven to be a "innocent man"...but the fact is Julie Taylor Johnson can no longer deny that she starred in a number of pornagraphic films...because...she has admitted to both the Police and the Court that she was a "porn star".
I told the police "Yes...I admit to filming and directing Ms Johnson in 30 plus porn movies between the end of 1991 and beginning of 2004...but I was not responsible for the photographs she handed to you or the clips on the Internet"...and they believed me.
That is because I was telling the truth...I always tell the truth.
Allegation 3...I again call Julie Taylor Johnson as a Expert Witness C.....and this time she is supported by Expert D...old friend/fan Nicholas Lightbown.
Julie claimed after we were married...and during the filming of Dirty Dancer...when I said "Your good at this"...she replied "I`ve done it before"...adding "I crashed my car in Hackney High Street...hit a lamp-post...it was a write-off and I need money quick so I became a stripper...I only did it for about 3 months" She later claimed "It was only 6 weeks"
But the fact is be it 3 months or 6 weeks it was she who made the claim...I admit I never entirely believed her and at first she was just saying it to sound `sexy or diry` or trying to "get me going"...but then I was contacted by a bloke called Nicholas Lightbown...who`d read The Punk Poet and claimed "I know Julie from her stripping days"...then described her and listed the pubs she performed at.
I was suspicious but he then gave me his home address, landline number and mobile...a female friend interviewed him and it turned out he was genuine...he did in fact know Julie from her pub stripping days in the East End.
So JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON can no longer deny her porn or stripping past...just as she can not deny protecting her perverted boyfriend Richard Grimson...as official documents do not lie.
Essex County Council describe Grimson as "Boyfriend of Ms Johnson"..."Julie`s partner" and most damning of all "significant person and other household member"...they are talking about 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford.
How apt that today is also the day of my final post.
Yesterday I received my Discharge Letter from Southend Hospital...containing the results of my medical tests...and couldnt resist going on Google...not a good idea when your a hypochondriac...as I`m now convinced time is running out.
Southend University Hospital NHS Foundation Trust
Inpatient Discharge Summary - Medical Directorate:
Primary Diagnosis:
Heart Attack
ECG: ST depression in V3-V6 and 1, T wave inversion V1-6, ?LVH
Aniogram:
LMS - diffuse disease distally (50%)
LAD - Long calcified lesion from ostial to mid LAD. Further diffuse disease throughout the course of the LAD
LCx - 80% lesion in proximal Cx
RCA - diffuse moderate disease throughout
LV - mild impairment
Plan: Outpatient tests and appropiate pr-op investigations for CABG
Co-Morbidition:
Gallstones
Hypertension
Hypercholesterolaemia
So am I dying? The answer is "yes".
This will be `music to the ears` of my ex-wife and Essex Social Services...who will both think that Christmas has come early...but that does mean the `fight for justice` is over.
Both my sons have vowed to "carry on the fight".
They will publically `clear my name` and let the world know that their dad was `murdered` by the lies of Julie Taylor Johnson and her partner-in-crime corrupt Social Worker Peter Brown.
My GP and both Basildon and Southend Hospital have confirmed that my `heart condition` is partly caused by stress....and both my sons know the stress was caused by the lies of Julie Taylor Johnson and her co-accused Peter Brown.
Both boys have promised they will never be forgot...and that the facts will be passed onto their own children when they ask about their Grandad.
I have in my possession 3517 documents...given to me by Essex County Council...after the Court ordered them to `come clean`.
These documents confirm everything I have stated since 2005.
They confirm that Richard Grimson...the boyfriend of my ex-wife...was a child abusing pervert and that Julie Taylor Johnson covered-up for him.
The documents confirm she was 100% aware of his behaviour.
I am still waiting for clarification that I can name the person I am about to quote...Essex County Council concede the documents are now my legal property...but my MP John Baron has advised to wait for a Court Order confirming I can `name names`...so for now I will `hold fire`...and not name the `experts` or the `victims` of her boyfriend.
So I will call my first witness...Expert A...she says of Julie Taylor Johnson: "In my view `young people` have been subject to emotional abuse. They have been spoken to in disgraceful and degrading terms...the partner of Ms Johnson appears to have been allowed to `get away` with acting in a reprehensible manner...and Ms Johnson has been less then clear with me about whether she is prepared to condemn outright her partner`s behaviour...which seems to be a matter of fact since he admitted it to the police. When we discuss the matter I find I am very confused about her view"
Those words will forever be a stain on her character and that verdict will follow her to the grave...which is why...she`ll never attend the weddings of my sons or the Christenings of any Johnson Grandchildren. Even in death I will have the last laugh.
Expert B...is Julie Taylor Johnson herself...legal documents reveal that when she told Social Services in 2007 and still tells other people "I never starred in pornographic films" she was in fact lying.
The truth is on 24th March 2006 at Southend County Court Julie Kathleen Johnson admitted on oath in front of His Honour Judge Yelton...case number SS05F01533 to starring in FOUR pornographic films.
Why she only admitted to `four` is a mystery...but at least this legal document confirms I have always told the truth about her `porno past`.
Another document from 2010 also confirms her involvement in the world of Adult Entertainment.
Julie Taylor Johnson lied to the Police that I`d put clips of her porno films on the Internet and sent pornographic photographs of her to friends and work colleagues.
This was an amazing lie as I told the police "I have not spoken to Julie or been alone in a room with her since June 2005...so who-ever took the pictures it wasn`t me.
The whole incident was very embarrassing...the police officers placed naked pictures of Julie Taylor Johnson on the desk...all she was wearing was a smile and black stockings...they asked if I recognised the woman in the photographs...and I replied "Well yes...I was married to her for 15 years but I didnt take those pictures"
I tried to help by saying "her boyfriend Richard Grimson has boasted about taking naked pictures of her while she slept...perhaps you should talk to him"
Adding "but it is nothing to do with me and it wasn`t me who put her porno films on the Internet"
The Police agreed I was innocent and released me without charge...my solicitor Ian Ashby of Nelson Guest wrote: "Mr Johnson was arrested after his ex-wife claimed he posted pornographic films and photographs of her on the Internet...we can tell you that following a police investigation this was found not to be the case and that the allegations were for want of a better way of putting it malicious on the part of her...he has not been subject to any prosecution and it is quite clear that the matter was for want of a better expression manipulated by her to reflect badly upon him but that he had in fact not done anything which could or should be regarded as wrong doing"
So I was proven to be a "innocent man"...but the fact is Julie Taylor Johnson can no longer deny that she starred in a number of pornagraphic films...because...she has admitted to both the Police and the Court that she was a "porn star".
I told the police "Yes...I admit to filming and directing Ms Johnson in 30 plus porn movies between the end of 1991 and beginning of 2004...but I was not responsible for the photographs she handed to you or the clips on the Internet"...and they believed me.
That is because I was telling the truth...I always tell the truth.
Allegation 3...I again call Julie Taylor Johnson as a Expert Witness C.....and this time she is supported by Expert D...old friend/fan Nicholas Lightbown.
Julie claimed after we were married...and during the filming of Dirty Dancer...when I said "Your good at this"...she replied "I`ve done it before"...adding "I crashed my car in Hackney High Street...hit a lamp-post...it was a write-off and I need money quick so I became a stripper...I only did it for about 3 months" She later claimed "It was only 6 weeks"
But the fact is be it 3 months or 6 weeks it was she who made the claim...I admit I never entirely believed her and at first she was just saying it to sound `sexy or diry` or trying to "get me going"...but then I was contacted by a bloke called Nicholas Lightbown...who`d read The Punk Poet and claimed "I know Julie from her stripping days"...then described her and listed the pubs she performed at.
I was suspicious but he then gave me his home address, landline number and mobile...a female friend interviewed him and it turned out he was genuine...he did in fact know Julie from her pub stripping days in the East End.
So JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON can no longer deny her porn or stripping past...just as she can not deny protecting her perverted boyfriend Richard Grimson...as official documents do not lie.
Essex County Council describe Grimson as "Boyfriend of Ms Johnson"..."Julie`s partner" and most damning of all "significant person and other household member"...they are talking about 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford.
Monday, 22 October 2012
Garry Johnson Cockney Rebel / Punk Poet
The letter I should of written and things I should of said...had I done both...the content of this book would have been a lot of different.
Without being all `Mills And Boon` about it...I will write that letter now...but hopefully I`ll still come across as a Cockney Rebel and not sound like a wimp
The fact is when my oldest was born I should of writen to my parents and out-laws saying "look I`m a dad now and I dont want no negative thoughts around my kids...no talk of my past"
But I didnt and that allowed the past to intrude on my adult life and the childhood of my kids.
My children should never of known that I came from a broken home or that I ended up in various childrens homes, Approved School, Detention Centre and Borstal.
When they asked why they had 6 grand-parents I should of said because were `Moonies` or `Mormons`.
Without being unkind to the dead...oh why not? ...tell it as it is/was...if the cap fits...how can I be honest without saying my dad was a `low-life , selfish bastard?`
He also made me what I am today...the opposite to him...thank God I didnt follow in his footsteps...he walked out on me when I was a kid for a foul-mouthed tart with the personality of Myra Hindley...as you can guess I didnt like my wicked stepmother!
My own mother also abandoned me...her defence was `well your dad left me and I needed to make a better life for myself`...note "for herself" ...it did not include me.
Now before I continue I aint moaning...this aint a sob story...cos I spent the next 17 years on my own...with no rules...no boundaries...no restrictions...hardly seeing either of them...and was genuinely happy...did my own thing...had a great time...so I aint looking for pity...I hade a
ball as they say...sex and drugs and rock `n`roll.
I had no-one to answer too...lived day to day...and all was cushty.
But when I got engaged...then married...these two `strangers` came back into my life...and so did my past...for years I had locked it away...forgot about it...by using drink and drugs...but bit by bit my past came back to haunt me...and then destroy everything I had built in my adult life.
I remember a incident...that at the time didnt `ring any bells`...or set off any alarms...but now I can see the sinister side of what took place.
For Seventeen years I had not excisted...had not a met a single relative of the man my mum married...I was a outcast...I cant remember if it was just after I got engaged or married...but I was suddenly invited to a `family party` in Barking...looking back I should not of gone...but sadly I did...as I didnt know then what I know now.
Since my parents split I spent 15 Christmas`s without them...again not complaining as I still had a great time ...with the help of mates, alcohol and speed.
I spent one Christmas with my mum and some relatives when I was 17 or 18...but couldnt handle it...from memory I went out to the local pub...met some girl in the disco (showing my age LOL)...and returned Boxing Day morning.
Once I went to a hotel with my dad and his friends in either Margate or Ramsgate and did the same...met some girl and didnt return for 24 hours...I couldnt cope being with my parents...or rather I couldnt handle my mum and dad being with `other people`...who were not my blood relatives.
The fact is I couldnt cope with them being `together` either...let me explain...when I got married it was the first time for 18 years that I had been in the same room with both my mum and dad...worse there `partners` were also there...and it freaked me out.
I couldnt drink because I knew I`d say something to the 4 of them...but GOD I wish I had...something like "fuck off"...and I couldnt self medicte with Speed or Charlie...because I`d given my `word` to Julie that I`d stop taking drugs.
That day ...not because I was marrying Julie...I aint having a dig at her honest...was without doubt the worst day of my life...it affected me...it did something to me that I cant explain.
I cant believe how I ended up in the same room at the same time as those four people...and I never put myself in that situation ever again.
There are a few `incidents` that still give me `nightmares/flashbacks` and make me `shake me up`.
My dad walking out...I can remember it like yesterday...it was Saturday 1pm and I`d just came back from Pitsea Market with my mate Vere...and my dad said "I`m leaving"...he gave us both 50p...f*****G big spender a? and left...he didnt say "goodbye" or where he was going...he just left...he didnt come home that night...and didnt come to watch me play football on the Sunday.
It was the first game he ever missed...and he never again watched me play football...I remember my Manager Mr Stanley, my mates and the other parents asking where my dad was...and not being able to answer...
But I cant remember where my mum was...she left sometime on the Friday...she was there when I went to school...but not when I came home...I do remember her coming in for about 10 minutes...about 6pm... when I was getting ready for the Friday Night Disco...but didnt see her again for ages.
My dad went to live in Plaistow...my mum moved to Grays...and from I can remember they both thought I was being `looked after` by the other.
It didnt bother me at the time...I was Thirteen with a empty house...and my mates and me had the run of the place...I was never on my own cos people would stay the night...I was lucky that most of my mates were older then me...Vere was two years older and always seemed to have money...so I was like a `pig in shit`...empty house, mates, girls, alcohol, speed...but it later years it wasnt funny...as without realising at the time it did affect me.
Another incident was from my first time at Boyles Court Remand Home when I was 12...it werent a juvenile prison...more like a Childrens Home...but I think they called it a Remand Home to `scare you`...it had a few volunteers...F*****g pervets who helped out...dont think it would be allowed nowadays...but the first Sunday night att about 9pm...this c**t who arrived in a Toc H bus...and was about 40-50 sat on my bed and touched me ABOVE the blanket...and BELOW my belly button area...nothing else happened...but I aint never forgot...and I went back a year later about 6 inches taller and with a Number 1 crop...lets just say I got my own back on the Ronnie Corbett lookalike.
Another incident that still gives me the shivers is being `attacked` at a party by a female with a crush on me...let me explain...I was 15 and she was a couple of years older.
Now my dad gave me one bit of advice...it was `sound` and something I`ve stuck to all my life...but the truth is the advice was more for his benefit then mine.
He said "I dont want to ever see you talking to a fat bird in the street"..adding "Dont show me up...because if I drove past with my mates I would be so embarrassed"...and I can see where he was coming from cos I`d hate to see my sons talking to `fat old dogs`.
I still feel ill when I see the likes of Fat Heather from Eastenders, Dawn Fench or Vanessa Feltz on TV...it turns my stomach...the only fat woman I like is Jo Brand because of her razor-sharp wit...but I can only watch her on Have I got News For You, Never Mind The Buzzcocks, Mock The Week or Would I lie To You because she`s sitting behind a desk...I can handle her fat head...but not her body.
Now at this party I was walking up the stairs to the bathroom and this fat girl grabbed me...groped me and tried to kiss me..it was vile...and I felt so dirty...the truth is I have never understood the reason God created fat women...what are they for...why do they excist.
There is nothing worse then a fat ugly tub of lard going on TV and saying /Lying "I love being fat -`m happy the way I am" - Bollocks.
There is not a fat woman - anything above a size 10 is fat in my book ...who wouldnt love to wake up with a body like Kate Moss, Ola Jordan, Amanda Holden, Denise Van Outen or Aby Clancy...and that is a fact.
It is a 100% fact...but not sexist.
The truth is 99% of most women would rather wake up with David Beckham then James Corden, Steve McFadden, Billy Bunter...or even me LOL...
Another incident that still gives me flashbacks/nightmares is the birth of my first son...an emergency caeseran where I nearly lost him...and his mother...that incident affected me so badly I dont think I`ll ever get over it...
For the record my mum and dad were `fine` with other people...loved by other people...but I just couldnt forget what they did to me...they betrayed me...and I betrayed myself by trying to `re-build bridges`.
But because I`m a big softie at heart...I allowed them back into my life...to have contact with their granchildren...I did it for the kids...but in the back of my mind...then in the front of my mind...I would have very clear `flashbacks`...I`d remember when I was 15 or 16 going up North to see my mum and her saying "dont call me mum in the garden...because the neighbours dont know I`ve got children"...that f*****g hurt...and I aint never forgotten.
But still I didnt want the past to impact on my kids...but it was so hard seeing my evil stepmother kissing, cuddling and playing with my kids...the very woman who forced my weak and disloyal dad to put me into care...
If only I had put my family first moved to Norfolk or emigrated to Australia...but I was too loyal for my own good.
My mum would still talk to me as if I was 12 or 13...and I could and I would sort of revert to a kid...I`m sure others saw it...but I couldnt at the time...now the last 2 times I saw my mum she went into her old routine in front of female friends...that being talkind down to me...saying what a handful I was as a kid...uncontrollable and made her life a misery...she would then slag off my dad...the next day I had to apologise to both Diane and Justine.
Neither had asked about my past, my dad, how much her house was worth or the fact that her garden backed onto the Golf Course...for a slight moment I found myself almost reverting to a teenager...but I just got up and walked into the kitchen...once bitten twice shy as they say.
My dad also had a similar habit of talking about my past...but never there own...neither told anyone how they both walked out on me...I wonder why not?
The fact is I should of banned all grandparents from saying anything negative or discussing my past with my children
MTF
Without being all `Mills And Boon` about it...I will write that letter now...but hopefully I`ll still come across as a Cockney Rebel and not sound like a wimp
The fact is when my oldest was born I should of writen to my parents and out-laws saying "look I`m a dad now and I dont want no negative thoughts around my kids...no talk of my past"
But I didnt and that allowed the past to intrude on my adult life and the childhood of my kids.
My children should never of known that I came from a broken home or that I ended up in various childrens homes, Approved School, Detention Centre and Borstal.
When they asked why they had 6 grand-parents I should of said because were `Moonies` or `Mormons`.
Without being unkind to the dead...oh why not? ...tell it as it is/was...if the cap fits...how can I be honest without saying my dad was a `low-life , selfish bastard?`
He also made me what I am today...the opposite to him...thank God I didnt follow in his footsteps...he walked out on me when I was a kid for a foul-mouthed tart with the personality of Myra Hindley...as you can guess I didnt like my wicked stepmother!
My own mother also abandoned me...her defence was `well your dad left me and I needed to make a better life for myself`...note "for herself" ...it did not include me.
Now before I continue I aint moaning...this aint a sob story...cos I spent the next 17 years on my own...with no rules...no boundaries...no restrictions...hardly seeing either of them...and was genuinely happy...did my own thing...had a great time...so I aint looking for pity...I hade a
ball as they say...sex and drugs and rock `n`roll.
I had no-one to answer too...lived day to day...and all was cushty.
But when I got engaged...then married...these two `strangers` came back into my life...and so did my past...for years I had locked it away...forgot about it...by using drink and drugs...but bit by bit my past came back to haunt me...and then destroy everything I had built in my adult life.
I remember a incident...that at the time didnt `ring any bells`...or set off any alarms...but now I can see the sinister side of what took place.
For Seventeen years I had not excisted...had not a met a single relative of the man my mum married...I was a outcast...I cant remember if it was just after I got engaged or married...but I was suddenly invited to a `family party` in Barking...looking back I should not of gone...but sadly I did...as I didnt know then what I know now.
Since my parents split I spent 15 Christmas`s without them...again not complaining as I still had a great time ...with the help of mates, alcohol and speed.
I spent one Christmas with my mum and some relatives when I was 17 or 18...but couldnt handle it...from memory I went out to the local pub...met some girl in the disco (showing my age LOL)...and returned Boxing Day morning.
Once I went to a hotel with my dad and his friends in either Margate or Ramsgate and did the same...met some girl and didnt return for 24 hours...I couldnt cope being with my parents...or rather I couldnt handle my mum and dad being with `other people`...who were not my blood relatives.
The fact is I couldnt cope with them being `together` either...let me explain...when I got married it was the first time for 18 years that I had been in the same room with both my mum and dad...worse there `partners` were also there...and it freaked me out.
I couldnt drink because I knew I`d say something to the 4 of them...but GOD I wish I had...something like "fuck off"...and I couldnt self medicte with Speed or Charlie...because I`d given my `word` to Julie that I`d stop taking drugs.
That day ...not because I was marrying Julie...I aint having a dig at her honest...was without doubt the worst day of my life...it affected me...it did something to me that I cant explain.
I cant believe how I ended up in the same room at the same time as those four people...and I never put myself in that situation ever again.
There are a few `incidents` that still give me `nightmares/flashbacks` and make me `shake me up`.
My dad walking out...I can remember it like yesterday...it was Saturday 1pm and I`d just came back from Pitsea Market with my mate Vere...and my dad said "I`m leaving"...he gave us both 50p...f*****G big spender a? and left...he didnt say "goodbye" or where he was going...he just left...he didnt come home that night...and didnt come to watch me play football on the Sunday.
It was the first game he ever missed...and he never again watched me play football...I remember my Manager Mr Stanley, my mates and the other parents asking where my dad was...and not being able to answer...
But I cant remember where my mum was...she left sometime on the Friday...she was there when I went to school...but not when I came home...I do remember her coming in for about 10 minutes...about 6pm... when I was getting ready for the Friday Night Disco...but didnt see her again for ages.
My dad went to live in Plaistow...my mum moved to Grays...and from I can remember they both thought I was being `looked after` by the other.
It didnt bother me at the time...I was Thirteen with a empty house...and my mates and me had the run of the place...I was never on my own cos people would stay the night...I was lucky that most of my mates were older then me...Vere was two years older and always seemed to have money...so I was like a `pig in shit`...empty house, mates, girls, alcohol, speed...but it later years it wasnt funny...as without realising at the time it did affect me.
Another incident was from my first time at Boyles Court Remand Home when I was 12...it werent a juvenile prison...more like a Childrens Home...but I think they called it a Remand Home to `scare you`...it had a few volunteers...F*****g pervets who helped out...dont think it would be allowed nowadays...but the first Sunday night att about 9pm...this c**t who arrived in a Toc H bus...and was about 40-50 sat on my bed and touched me ABOVE the blanket...and BELOW my belly button area...nothing else happened...but I aint never forgot...and I went back a year later about 6 inches taller and with a Number 1 crop...lets just say I got my own back on the Ronnie Corbett lookalike.
Another incident that still gives me the shivers is being `attacked` at a party by a female with a crush on me...let me explain...I was 15 and she was a couple of years older.
Now my dad gave me one bit of advice...it was `sound` and something I`ve stuck to all my life...but the truth is the advice was more for his benefit then mine.
He said "I dont want to ever see you talking to a fat bird in the street"..adding "Dont show me up...because if I drove past with my mates I would be so embarrassed"...and I can see where he was coming from cos I`d hate to see my sons talking to `fat old dogs`.
I still feel ill when I see the likes of Fat Heather from Eastenders, Dawn Fench or Vanessa Feltz on TV...it turns my stomach...the only fat woman I like is Jo Brand because of her razor-sharp wit...but I can only watch her on Have I got News For You, Never Mind The Buzzcocks, Mock The Week or Would I lie To You because she`s sitting behind a desk...I can handle her fat head...but not her body.
Now at this party I was walking up the stairs to the bathroom and this fat girl grabbed me...groped me and tried to kiss me..it was vile...and I felt so dirty...the truth is I have never understood the reason God created fat women...what are they for...why do they excist.
There is nothing worse then a fat ugly tub of lard going on TV and saying /Lying "I love being fat -`m happy the way I am" - Bollocks.
There is not a fat woman - anything above a size 10 is fat in my book ...who wouldnt love to wake up with a body like Kate Moss, Ola Jordan, Amanda Holden, Denise Van Outen or Aby Clancy...and that is a fact.
It is a 100% fact...but not sexist.
The truth is 99% of most women would rather wake up with David Beckham then James Corden, Steve McFadden, Billy Bunter...or even me LOL...
Another incident that still gives me flashbacks/nightmares is the birth of my first son...an emergency caeseran where I nearly lost him...and his mother...that incident affected me so badly I dont think I`ll ever get over it...
For the record my mum and dad were `fine` with other people...loved by other people...but I just couldnt forget what they did to me...they betrayed me...and I betrayed myself by trying to `re-build bridges`.
But because I`m a big softie at heart...I allowed them back into my life...to have contact with their granchildren...I did it for the kids...but in the back of my mind...then in the front of my mind...I would have very clear `flashbacks`...I`d remember when I was 15 or 16 going up North to see my mum and her saying "dont call me mum in the garden...because the neighbours dont know I`ve got children"...that f*****g hurt...and I aint never forgotten.
But still I didnt want the past to impact on my kids...but it was so hard seeing my evil stepmother kissing, cuddling and playing with my kids...the very woman who forced my weak and disloyal dad to put me into care...
If only I had put my family first moved to Norfolk or emigrated to Australia...but I was too loyal for my own good.
My mum would still talk to me as if I was 12 or 13...and I could and I would sort of revert to a kid...I`m sure others saw it...but I couldnt at the time...now the last 2 times I saw my mum she went into her old routine in front of female friends...that being talkind down to me...saying what a handful I was as a kid...uncontrollable and made her life a misery...she would then slag off my dad...the next day I had to apologise to both Diane and Justine.
Neither had asked about my past, my dad, how much her house was worth or the fact that her garden backed onto the Golf Course...for a slight moment I found myself almost reverting to a teenager...but I just got up and walked into the kitchen...once bitten twice shy as they say.
My dad also had a similar habit of talking about my past...but never there own...neither told anyone how they both walked out on me...I wonder why not?
The fact is I should of banned all grandparents from saying anything negative or discussing my past with my children
MTF
Sunday, 21 October 2012
The Civil Hearing 26 October 2012
Returned home yesterday evening and in amongst the various bills, junk mail and medical appointments were a few legal letters.
All containing `great news`.
The 26 October Hearing regarding my case against Julie Taylor Johnson for slander, libel and the making of `false allegations` will be heard in open court...because I`m bringing a Civil Case...which means the media can legally name `names`.
Also confirmation that the `young people` currently referred to as Child A and Child B... can after 4.11.12 be legally and lawfully named in public.
The Local Authority...who again I cant name until after 4.11.12...have conceded in an official document that both child "A" and "B" will be `free` to speak to the media and their MP.
I also have confirmation that the 6 November Hearing will be in public...as that it also being heard in a Civil Court.
But as yet no `written confirmation` that my case against the Local Authority...which I cant publically name untill after 4.11.12...will be heard in public...though `pretty confident` because of precedents and High Court rulings that it will be.
All these matters and with legal approval will be covered in the published version of `Cockney Rebel and Punk Poet`.
Not only have the goal posts been moved...but for the first time we will be competing on a level playing field
This Chapter is dedicated to Doreen Lawrence, Winnie Johnson, The Hillsborough Campaigners, the Mum
of computer hacker Gary McKinnon, the Mothers of Sarah Payne, Maddie McCann and Jamie Bulger.
Decent honest people...who like myself NEVER gave up on getting JUSTICE.
The fact is that after 4.11.12 the genie will be `out of the bottle`...there will be no more `gagging orders`...or places to hide for the GUILTY...and for the first time everyone will know with legal approval everything about child-abusing former pimp richard grimson...formerly of 40 Hyde Way Wickford Essex...believe me `no stone will be left unturned` and not a single fact kept from the public.
You will notice that I have not waited for 4.11.12 to name grimson...this is because he has already ADMITTED his vile and disgusting behaviour to the police...all his `perverted crimes` are on-the-record and confirmed as FACT in various official documents...and I have written testament from one of his own relatives...confirming he has a 15-year history of mental illness, threatening, bullying and intimidating women and children.
Plus it was the police themselves who confirmed grimson worked as a pimp in the Heath Park/Romford area of Essex.
I will reveal how the pervert declined a Lie Detector test on the pathetic `grounds`...that he "wasnt up to it"...due to the medication he was on...as at the time he was being treated for `mental health` issues by Dr Sohota at the Market Road Medical Centre in Wickford Essex.
It is my belief that `mental illness` is no excuse for threatening, abusing, intimidating or bullying innocent women and children.
Plus it does not justify living off immoral earnings and personally driving prostitutes to clients homes in and around Essex.
So after 4.11.12 I will legally name the former pub stripper and porn star who covered-up for the child-abusing former pimp.
I will not do so now....though I would very much like to...but I will bide my time...then do it all 100% legally...all above board and by the letter of the law.
And with British Justice on my side...I wont just reveal that a paul wellings phoned me for copies of certain pornographic movies...I will publish his timed and dated email request.
This is a very important disclosure.
(a) Wellings is a former Daily Mirror journalist who has built a phoney `right-on` image as a trendy cockney Leftie and champion of Women`s Right...against page 3 and anti-pornography.
So what is he doing ringing up and emailing me for a copy of the porn film Basildon Babe?
(b) Also Mr Wellings is married to a women who is a `close friend` of the porno star...I would suggest that Lisa Wellings will not be `impressed` when she reads a copy of her two-faced husband`s email... practically `begging` to see her friend naked and performing various sex acts.
So at long last I can legally name `names` and tell the true story about the porno star and child-abusing former pimp richard grimson.
Elizabeth Roscoe...a top female Judge at The High Court ruled in June 2011...that a `wronged` husband could tell all about his cheating wife and name her lover.
Celebs have been doing it for years...but Her Honour gave plumber Ian Puddick and every other `man and women in the street` the same human right.
Now `innocent victims` (husbands & wives) can tell the whole world about their adulterous partner, name the lover and reveal everything about the affair.
"Dear Reader...I give you my `word`.that I will not hold back...I promise to tell you every single detail that I know about the `odd couple` ".
The fact is that after 4.11.12...***** ****** ******* can no longer prevent the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth being put into the public domain.
The whole world will be able to read about the `affair` and the vile crimes committed by the pervert and covered-up by the porno star.
An affair that was supported by the parents of the porn star...who allowed the Shrek lookalike into their home even though they were aware he was a former pimp and a pervert...a timed and dated email from Fleet Street legend Garry Bushell to the parents confirms they knew all about the `perverted crimes` of their `unnoficial` son-in-law.
A copy of the email will be printed in the book.
All containing `great news`.
The 26 October Hearing regarding my case against Julie Taylor Johnson for slander, libel and the making of `false allegations` will be heard in open court...because I`m bringing a Civil Case...which means the media can legally name `names`.
Also confirmation that the `young people` currently referred to as Child A and Child B... can after 4.11.12 be legally and lawfully named in public.
The Local Authority...who again I cant name until after 4.11.12...have conceded in an official document that both child "A" and "B" will be `free` to speak to the media and their MP.
I also have confirmation that the 6 November Hearing will be in public...as that it also being heard in a Civil Court.
But as yet no `written confirmation` that my case against the Local Authority...which I cant publically name untill after 4.11.12...will be heard in public...though `pretty confident` because of precedents and High Court rulings that it will be.
All these matters and with legal approval will be covered in the published version of `Cockney Rebel and Punk Poet`.
Not only have the goal posts been moved...but for the first time we will be competing on a level playing field
This Chapter is dedicated to Doreen Lawrence, Winnie Johnson, The Hillsborough Campaigners, the Mum
of computer hacker Gary McKinnon, the Mothers of Sarah Payne, Maddie McCann and Jamie Bulger.
Decent honest people...who like myself NEVER gave up on getting JUSTICE.
The fact is that after 4.11.12 the genie will be `out of the bottle`...there will be no more `gagging orders`...or places to hide for the GUILTY...and for the first time everyone will know with legal approval everything about child-abusing former pimp richard grimson...formerly of 40 Hyde Way Wickford Essex...believe me `no stone will be left unturned` and not a single fact kept from the public.
You will notice that I have not waited for 4.11.12 to name grimson...this is because he has already ADMITTED his vile and disgusting behaviour to the police...all his `perverted crimes` are on-the-record and confirmed as FACT in various official documents...and I have written testament from one of his own relatives...confirming he has a 15-year history of mental illness, threatening, bullying and intimidating women and children.
Plus it was the police themselves who confirmed grimson worked as a pimp in the Heath Park/Romford area of Essex.
I will reveal how the pervert declined a Lie Detector test on the pathetic `grounds`...that he "wasnt up to it"...due to the medication he was on...as at the time he was being treated for `mental health` issues by Dr Sohota at the Market Road Medical Centre in Wickford Essex.
It is my belief that `mental illness` is no excuse for threatening, abusing, intimidating or bullying innocent women and children.
Plus it does not justify living off immoral earnings and personally driving prostitutes to clients homes in and around Essex.
So after 4.11.12 I will legally name the former pub stripper and porn star who covered-up for the child-abusing former pimp.
I will not do so now....though I would very much like to...but I will bide my time...then do it all 100% legally...all above board and by the letter of the law.
And with British Justice on my side...I wont just reveal that a paul wellings phoned me for copies of certain pornographic movies...I will publish his timed and dated email request.
This is a very important disclosure.
(a) Wellings is a former Daily Mirror journalist who has built a phoney `right-on` image as a trendy cockney Leftie and champion of Women`s Right...against page 3 and anti-pornography.
So what is he doing ringing up and emailing me for a copy of the porn film Basildon Babe?
(b) Also Mr Wellings is married to a women who is a `close friend` of the porno star...I would suggest that Lisa Wellings will not be `impressed` when she reads a copy of her two-faced husband`s email... practically `begging` to see her friend naked and performing various sex acts.
So at long last I can legally name `names` and tell the true story about the porno star and child-abusing former pimp richard grimson.
Elizabeth Roscoe...a top female Judge at The High Court ruled in June 2011...that a `wronged` husband could tell all about his cheating wife and name her lover.
Celebs have been doing it for years...but Her Honour gave plumber Ian Puddick and every other `man and women in the street` the same human right.
Now `innocent victims` (husbands & wives) can tell the whole world about their adulterous partner, name the lover and reveal everything about the affair.
"Dear Reader...I give you my `word`.that I will not hold back...I promise to tell you every single detail that I know about the `odd couple` ".
The fact is that after 4.11.12...***** ****** ******* can no longer prevent the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth being put into the public domain.
The whole world will be able to read about the `affair` and the vile crimes committed by the pervert and covered-up by the porno star.
An affair that was supported by the parents of the porn star...who allowed the Shrek lookalike into their home even though they were aware he was a former pimp and a pervert...a timed and dated email from Fleet Street legend Garry Bushell to the parents confirms they knew all about the `perverted crimes` of their `unnoficial` son-in-law.
A copy of the email will be printed in the book.
Saturday, 13 October 2012
Garry Bushell To The Rescue
Great news top Journo Garry Bushell is now part of the writing team. The Godfather of Punk and Fleet Street Legend has offered to re-write my autobiography.
Gal read the draft, loved the content and the pictures but said "Before you go to print let me sort out the grammar and correct the spelling mistakes"
It was a offer I could not refuse.
So now as well as me quoting him throughout the book GB will also have his own Chapter to give his views on my ex-wife, the marriage and my transformation from teenage tearaway to Punk Poet.
Garry was best man at the Wedding so entitled to go on-the-record. He will reveal how my former fascist father-in-law was a BNP supporter who tried to recruit him at the reception.
How mr taylor would say "Hitler had the right idea" and so did "Enoch" - this was reference to the former Conservative MP Enoch Powell - and not his black cat - who as some kind of sick tribute he named Enoch.
Garry a life-long anti-racist with many black mates and even more Jewish friends was rightly offended by this vile & disgusting language. The Fuhrer...as we would refer to Mr Tony Taylor would also boast about `cutting off` his only sister for committing a "terrible crime".
And what was this crime that so offended Anthony Taylor of Wickford? Was his sister a murderer, a Communist or a `child abuser` like his unofficial son-in-law richard grimson?
The answer will shock all decent people...the poor woman had NOT committed any crime...unless of course you was a Nazi like Mr Taylor.
He disowned his own sister because she married a INDIAN...and would boast "I have not spoken to her for over 20 years...and never will". I was deeply offended by his remarks...and even more disgusted by the fact that he seemed so `proud` of his NAZI principles.
Mr Taylor even stopped Julie from seeing her own cousins because in his words they "f***ing black"
GB will also reveal how he warned Julie as a `former friend` and `best man` at her wedding about the perverted background and vile behaviour of her boyfriend richard grimson.
Hard facts obtained from police sources and relatives of her live-in lover at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford Essex.
Julie knew her boyfriend was a former pimp and child abuser, who also bullied, beat, intimidated and threatened women - but because I say she was so `obsessed` with him - others have said "scared of him" she chose to ignore the truth.
Julie was involved either willingly or under duress with a fat ugly bully who terrorised both women and children.
A fact confirmed by the woman who lived opposite their first `love nest/meeting place` at 40 Hyde Way Wickford Essex.
This woman reported grimson to Wickford Police in the summer of 2004 - just weeks before Julie started sleeping with the Shrek lookalike.
Garry Bushell sent Julie Taylor Johnson a email via her mother (joycetaylor6@Hotmail.co.uk) warning her that grimson was a child abuser and a pervert.
A timed and dated copy of the email will be published in the book.
But as we all know Julie protected the `borderline paedophile` even though he admitted his vile behavior to the police.
The fact is whereas serial adulterers lie - official documents dont.
Having Garry Bushell on board will help with the publicity and also push up sales. So once again GB is playing a major part in my life.
Gal read the draft, loved the content and the pictures but said "Before you go to print let me sort out the grammar and correct the spelling mistakes"
It was a offer I could not refuse.
So now as well as me quoting him throughout the book GB will also have his own Chapter to give his views on my ex-wife, the marriage and my transformation from teenage tearaway to Punk Poet.
Garry was best man at the Wedding so entitled to go on-the-record. He will reveal how my former fascist father-in-law was a BNP supporter who tried to recruit him at the reception.
How mr taylor would say "Hitler had the right idea" and so did "Enoch" - this was reference to the former Conservative MP Enoch Powell - and not his black cat - who as some kind of sick tribute he named Enoch.
Garry a life-long anti-racist with many black mates and even more Jewish friends was rightly offended by this vile & disgusting language. The Fuhrer...as we would refer to Mr Tony Taylor would also boast about `cutting off` his only sister for committing a "terrible crime".
And what was this crime that so offended Anthony Taylor of Wickford? Was his sister a murderer, a Communist or a `child abuser` like his unofficial son-in-law richard grimson?
The answer will shock all decent people...the poor woman had NOT committed any crime...unless of course you was a Nazi like Mr Taylor.
He disowned his own sister because she married a INDIAN...and would boast "I have not spoken to her for over 20 years...and never will". I was deeply offended by his remarks...and even more disgusted by the fact that he seemed so `proud` of his NAZI principles.
Mr Taylor even stopped Julie from seeing her own cousins because in his words they "f***ing black"
GB will also reveal how he warned Julie as a `former friend` and `best man` at her wedding about the perverted background and vile behaviour of her boyfriend richard grimson.
Hard facts obtained from police sources and relatives of her live-in lover at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford Essex.
Julie knew her boyfriend was a former pimp and child abuser, who also bullied, beat, intimidated and threatened women - but because I say she was so `obsessed` with him - others have said "scared of him" she chose to ignore the truth.
Julie was involved either willingly or under duress with a fat ugly bully who terrorised both women and children.
A fact confirmed by the woman who lived opposite their first `love nest/meeting place` at 40 Hyde Way Wickford Essex.
This woman reported grimson to Wickford Police in the summer of 2004 - just weeks before Julie started sleeping with the Shrek lookalike.
Garry Bushell sent Julie Taylor Johnson a email via her mother (joycetaylor6@Hotmail.co.uk) warning her that grimson was a child abuser and a pervert.
A timed and dated copy of the email will be published in the book.
But as we all know Julie protected the `borderline paedophile` even though he admitted his vile behavior to the police.
The fact is whereas serial adulterers lie - official documents dont.
Having Garry Bushell on board will help with the publicity and also push up sales. So once again GB is playing a major part in my life.
Tuesday, 9 October 2012
Strictly Legal
Today I got legal confirmation that as from 4th November 2012 two youngsters who today I cant name and who must be referred to as `Child A` and `Child B` can be named.
It will also be strictly legal for both boys to speak to the media. They can without `fear` give interviews to the press and appear on TV.
The Local Authority (who today I cant name - but who I can from November 4th onwards) have conceded that both `Child A` and `Child B` will be free to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
I must get both boys a decent Press Officer who has links to The Sun and TV`s This Morning.
It will also be strictly legal for both boys to speak to the media. They can without `fear` give interviews to the press and appear on TV.
The Local Authority (who today I cant name - but who I can from November 4th onwards) have conceded that both `Child A` and `Child B` will be free to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
I must get both boys a decent Press Officer who has links to The Sun and TV`s This Morning.
Richard Grimson and Shotgate Slut Julie Johnson (Part 2)
New Information about the affair between Julie Johnson - aka JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON and former perverted pimp and child abuser Richard Grimson.
Last night I heard how the `odd couple` would meet in a Portacabin at the side of the Adams & Sons Financial building at...
41 Progress Road , Southend Essex and how on one occassion - my friend - was told by the pervert Grimson - how he `burned` his hand while trying to turn up the radiator.
Apparently Julie was complaiming it was to cold to get `undressed`. The former pimp had access to the `luv cabin` situated behind a high-wire fence because at the time he was a odd-job man and janitor for the company.
Official documents confirm that even though Julie knew she was having an affair with a former pimp and child abuser...that months AFTER finding out he was a borderline paedophile she took out a car loan with his help/introduction at Adams & Sons Financial.
For those wishing to check...ring up...01702 526100 and claim to be an old mate of Grimson. Someone I knew phoned pretending to be an ex-girlfriend of the pervert and was told he`d moved to Cambridgeshire...which led to us tracking him down to Wisbech!
A `friend of a friend` has actually seen him strutting about in his secondhand army uniform and `spread the word` about his perverted past.
So we now know they met between mid-day and 2pm at 40 Hyde Way Wickford when Emma his common law wife was working in Chelmsford.
At 22 Bridge Road Shotgate Wickford Essex when I wasnt in. One Saturday night at his bosses house in Hadleigh, hotel rooms in Basildon, Brentwood and Southend.
Plus numerous occassions at the Boots and Laces carpark in Southend, behind The Carpenters Arms pub in Shotgate and in various secluded lay-byes all other Basildon...and now a poorly heated Portacabin off the 127 - "HOW ROMANTIC"...and lets not forget that in 2005 (as Her Medical Records confirm) the child-abusing former pimp also gave her a `sexual disease` for Christmas - "Charming".
Whereas I gave her 3 kids, bought her clothes from Next, `smellies` from The Body Shop, chocolates, gold bangles, DVDs and CDs.
Lets be honest how could I compete with a fat bald former pimp, with no front teeth, who abused children, had the dress sense of Rambo and a STD ?
Last night I heard how the `odd couple` would meet in a Portacabin at the side of the Adams & Sons Financial building at...
41 Progress Road , Southend Essex and how on one occassion - my friend - was told by the pervert Grimson - how he `burned` his hand while trying to turn up the radiator.
Apparently Julie was complaiming it was to cold to get `undressed`. The former pimp had access to the `luv cabin` situated behind a high-wire fence because at the time he was a odd-job man and janitor for the company.
Official documents confirm that even though Julie knew she was having an affair with a former pimp and child abuser...that months AFTER finding out he was a borderline paedophile she took out a car loan with his help/introduction at Adams & Sons Financial.
For those wishing to check...ring up...01702 526100 and claim to be an old mate of Grimson. Someone I knew phoned pretending to be an ex-girlfriend of the pervert and was told he`d moved to Cambridgeshire...which led to us tracking him down to Wisbech!
A `friend of a friend` has actually seen him strutting about in his secondhand army uniform and `spread the word` about his perverted past.
So we now know they met between mid-day and 2pm at 40 Hyde Way Wickford when Emma his common law wife was working in Chelmsford.
At 22 Bridge Road Shotgate Wickford Essex when I wasnt in. One Saturday night at his bosses house in Hadleigh, hotel rooms in Basildon, Brentwood and Southend.
Plus numerous occassions at the Boots and Laces carpark in Southend, behind The Carpenters Arms pub in Shotgate and in various secluded lay-byes all other Basildon...and now a poorly heated Portacabin off the 127 - "HOW ROMANTIC"...and lets not forget that in 2005 (as Her Medical Records confirm) the child-abusing former pimp also gave her a `sexual disease` for Christmas - "Charming".
Whereas I gave her 3 kids, bought her clothes from Next, `smellies` from The Body Shop, chocolates, gold bangles, DVDs and CDs.
Lets be honest how could I compete with a fat bald former pimp, with no front teeth, who abused children, had the dress sense of Rambo and a STD ?
Thursday, 4 October 2012
Julie Johnson/Garry Johnson - Fact or Fiction / Truth or Lies
The author is now going to put his reputation on the line and give any readers of this book the opportunity to challenge his honesty. Pay for me to take a Lie Detector Test and I`ll willingly do it.
Will Julie Johnson - aka JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON - do the same?
The writer...as in the rest of the book...where he gives a frank and honest account of his life from childhood to adulthood...will tell the TRUTH about everything that occured between 1989 and 2005.
JULIE JOHNSON has two choices...either admit that every single word is the Gospel Truth...or be brave enough to take a Lie Detector Test?
Has JULIE JOHNSON got the courage to either admit her past or to take on the challenge of a Lie Detector Test?
If she really wants to deny her porno past...serial adultery...and in December 2004 contacting a STD from boyfriend richard grimson of 40 Hyde Way Wickford...its pretty simple...just take a Lie Detector Test.
If Julie denies living under the same roof as the perverted former pimp at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford then take a Lie Detector Test.
It really is that easy...and in my book...no INNOCENT person would say "NO"...if they had the opportunity to clear there name!
And lets NOT forget a lot of the allegations and content of this book...dont come from me...they come from the `horses mouth`...so to speak.
The fat former pimp claims..."The affair started in September 2004"...though he told another person "It was October 2004".
The self-confessed child abuser boasted "Julie did all the running"..."She promised me sex if I beat Garry up"...and new information does add some sort of weight to this claim.
I was told recently that a friend of Julie`s from Chestnut Road...left her husband...for a fat bald bloke...and as a favour...he `beat up` her old man...NOT got a clue if that`s true - but as Julie was always a bit of a `fantasist` and grimson was a fat tub of lard...it could be true...except the borderline paedophile NEVER beat me up LOL.
I suspect he may of promised...but only to get what he wanted...that being Julie into bed. The former pimp...NOT me...also claims he made Julie pregnant in January 2005...and claims she would put a chair against the bedroom door at 10 Carswell Gardens as she was `scared` of being disturbed. (caught in the act)
The boyfriend...a odd job man and caretaker at Adams and Sons Financial in Southend also claimed that while Julie slept at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford...he took naked pictures of her on his phone.
He also claims they would have afternoon sex sessions at 40 Hyde Way Wickford - when his common-law wife Emma was at work...at 22 Bridge Road Shotgate Wickford when I was out...and that some Thursday or Friday nights they would use the porta-cabin at the side of the Adam and Sons Financial building in Southend.
My recent stay in Southend Hospital...could help to prove or disprove one of their `secret sex meetings`...according to grimson...one night in the porta-cabin it was so cold that Julie wasnt happy about getting undressed...so he tried fix the radiator...which led to him being `burned/scolded` by the boiling hot water...and Julie taking him to A&E.
One of the nurses told me that any admission would still be in the Hospital files...so I am sure that by using The Freedom Of Information Act...it could be confirmed wether the pervert was treated for `burns` between October 2004 and June 2005.
For-the-record and avoidance of any doubt...all of the above are allegations/boasts made by perverted former pimp richard grimson...so dont shoot the messenger.
But Julie...the same rules still apply...are you willing to take a Lie Detector Test to PROVE your boyfriend is lying?
THESE are my ALLEGATIONS.
I allege that between 1990 and 2004 that my ex-wife `starred` in over 30 porno films....Julie...is that true or false?
Julie did you at various times willingly dress up as a sexy St Trinians schoolgirl...a Hooker and a Policewoman?
I only name those three because they were my favourite characters. I also loved her `Sexy Santa`...but for some reason she hated that outfit!
Julie did I film you dirty dancing...giving blow jobs and us having sex - "yes or no" ?
Were you filmed at 30 The Gables in bed and handcuffed to the headboard - naked apart from black stockings...and also tied up and handcuffed to the stairs at 64 Chestnut Road?
(detail to jog your memory...we bought the gold/brass headboard one Saturday Afternoon at Choice - the shop that sells ex-Next...off the 127 in Basildon)
Was it you I filmed giving a naughty naked house tour at 30 The Gables - you went from room to room on all fours - then with the camera placed on a sideboard we filmed ourselves having sex - true or false?
At 22 Bridge Road Shotgate did I film you dancing around in a black open-crotch fishnet body stocking and then film us having sex in the Conservatory - fact or fiction?
Do you recall the time at 11 Shirley Gardens when after stripping off your Police uniform that I filmed you masturbating with a toy truncheon on the bedroom...it was such a turn on for us both that you often repeated this on and off camera at both 64 Chestnut Road and 22 Bridge Road - truth or lie?
JULIE I am offering you the chance of a Lie Detector test `free of charge` - I will pay for it - so the ball is in your court - whats it to be DEAL or NO DEAL?
(More details to help you remember)
We bought the video camera...at either Dixons or some other Electrical Chain...at the Basildon Industrial Estate off the 127.
If you recall - and I ADMIT...I got a `hard-on`...you spotted it...as I filled in all the forms...because I knew what we`d be doing in a few hours.
Does this ring a bell?
Also do you remember what occured at 11 Shirley Gardens? I will jog your memory...and state on my childrens lives...the following.
To make first the polaroid pictures and later the filming to look more `professional`...I would build sort of `studio sets`...is it coming back to you?
I put up a plain curtain and sheet on the floor to make it look like a proper professional studio...remember as I used to attend Page 3 auditions with photographer Steve Payne at his Wapping Studio...so I knew what to do.
I also built a little stage for you to dance and strip on...and would place the camera on cupboards...chest of drawers...chairs...tables...when filming us having sex or you giving blow jobs.
Sometimes it would take ages...as I had to keep checking the angles...and you would...depending on your mood...either start laughing...or get the hump.
DO YOU WISH TO DENY ANY OF THE ABOVE?
Props:
Julie do you recall me buying you sexy black knee-length boots from the Next Catologue? You would wear them with the Anne Summers underwear...again you can deny/lie...but the films dont lie...also old bank statements will confirm what we bought and where!
Do you recall / will you confirm me buying the schoolgirl outfits from that little corner shop on Canvey Island?
At first you`d say "Dressing up as a schoolgirl was pervy"...and I would reply "Men who like real little girls in school uniforms are PERVERTS" adding "There is nothing perverted in men who like WOMEN dressed up as St Trinian schoolgirls"
As proven by the attraction of the Britney Spears Video...and lets not forget the School Dinners restaraunt...where page 3 lookalikes/waitresses dressed as St Trinian schoolgirls...and from memory every rock band in the 1980s went there at least once.
I remember going with Slade, Ozzy...and from memory I think Guns and Roses...all paid for by the Record Companies.
Surely you aint forgotten me buying you a sort of Black Tina Turner style wig...from a stall at The Gallery third/4th Floor at Lakeside?
IF YOU DISAGREE WITH ANY OF THE ABOVE TAKE A LIE DETECTOR TEST...it really is as simple as that.
JULIE JOHNSON - PUB STRIPPER.
I will for the record...and because I only deal in 100% facts...ADMIT that I am NOT sure about this.
(a) I never saw you strip...well not in a pub...I filmed you stripping many times at 11 Shirley Gardens...and 30 The Gables...64 Chestnut Road...22 Bridge Road...and you was "bloody great at it"
BUT I still dont believe you was in fact a dirty pub stripper...I dont want to believe such a thing...BUT you personally told me you was - the first time I filmed you stripping - after I praised your performance you said...I thought you trying to be dirty...but you said something like "I`ve done it before"...when I said (Obviously outraged/jealous LOL)
"You are joking"
I remember you saying "I did it in pubs for about 3 months"...you later said 6 weeks...but at the time I was more interested in having sex then a in-depth conversation.
(b) But about 2/3 years ago some geezer called Nicholas Lightbown (The name made me suspicious)...contacted me after reading THE PUNK POET...and seeing clips of your porno film...and said he knew you from your days as a Pub Stripper.
I thought it was a wind up...then he sent me his address, phone number and mobile details...I still werent convinced...so my friend Toni (who you`ve met) interviewed him...and she was of the opinion he was 100% genuine.
So JULIE JOHNSON I think only a Lie Detector Test will reveal the Truth.
Are you willing to restore or further ruin your reputation?
A truly "INNOCENT" woman...I believe would want the chance to prove she WASNT a serial adulterer, a porno actress or a pub stripper.
She would also want to deny the vile boasts of a fat perverted former pimp.
I am personally willing to have a Lie Detector Test anytime, anyplace, anywhere...are you of the same mind JULIE JOHNSON?
Will Julie Johnson - aka JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON - do the same?
The writer...as in the rest of the book...where he gives a frank and honest account of his life from childhood to adulthood...will tell the TRUTH about everything that occured between 1989 and 2005.
JULIE JOHNSON has two choices...either admit that every single word is the Gospel Truth...or be brave enough to take a Lie Detector Test?
Has JULIE JOHNSON got the courage to either admit her past or to take on the challenge of a Lie Detector Test?
If she really wants to deny her porno past...serial adultery...and in December 2004 contacting a STD from boyfriend richard grimson of 40 Hyde Way Wickford...its pretty simple...just take a Lie Detector Test.
If Julie denies living under the same roof as the perverted former pimp at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford then take a Lie Detector Test.
It really is that easy...and in my book...no INNOCENT person would say "NO"...if they had the opportunity to clear there name!
And lets NOT forget a lot of the allegations and content of this book...dont come from me...they come from the `horses mouth`...so to speak.
The fat former pimp claims..."The affair started in September 2004"...though he told another person "It was October 2004".
The self-confessed child abuser boasted "Julie did all the running"..."She promised me sex if I beat Garry up"...and new information does add some sort of weight to this claim.
I was told recently that a friend of Julie`s from Chestnut Road...left her husband...for a fat bald bloke...and as a favour...he `beat up` her old man...NOT got a clue if that`s true - but as Julie was always a bit of a `fantasist` and grimson was a fat tub of lard...it could be true...except the borderline paedophile NEVER beat me up LOL.
I suspect he may of promised...but only to get what he wanted...that being Julie into bed. The former pimp...NOT me...also claims he made Julie pregnant in January 2005...and claims she would put a chair against the bedroom door at 10 Carswell Gardens as she was `scared` of being disturbed. (caught in the act)
The boyfriend...a odd job man and caretaker at Adams and Sons Financial in Southend also claimed that while Julie slept at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford...he took naked pictures of her on his phone.
He also claims they would have afternoon sex sessions at 40 Hyde Way Wickford - when his common-law wife Emma was at work...at 22 Bridge Road Shotgate Wickford when I was out...and that some Thursday or Friday nights they would use the porta-cabin at the side of the Adam and Sons Financial building in Southend.
My recent stay in Southend Hospital...could help to prove or disprove one of their `secret sex meetings`...according to grimson...one night in the porta-cabin it was so cold that Julie wasnt happy about getting undressed...so he tried fix the radiator...which led to him being `burned/scolded` by the boiling hot water...and Julie taking him to A&E.
One of the nurses told me that any admission would still be in the Hospital files...so I am sure that by using The Freedom Of Information Act...it could be confirmed wether the pervert was treated for `burns` between October 2004 and June 2005.
For-the-record and avoidance of any doubt...all of the above are allegations/boasts made by perverted former pimp richard grimson...so dont shoot the messenger.
But Julie...the same rules still apply...are you willing to take a Lie Detector Test to PROVE your boyfriend is lying?
THESE are my ALLEGATIONS.
I allege that between 1990 and 2004 that my ex-wife `starred` in over 30 porno films....Julie...is that true or false?
Julie did you at various times willingly dress up as a sexy St Trinians schoolgirl...a Hooker and a Policewoman?
I only name those three because they were my favourite characters. I also loved her `Sexy Santa`...but for some reason she hated that outfit!
Julie did I film you dirty dancing...giving blow jobs and us having sex - "yes or no" ?
Were you filmed at 30 The Gables in bed and handcuffed to the headboard - naked apart from black stockings...and also tied up and handcuffed to the stairs at 64 Chestnut Road?
(detail to jog your memory...we bought the gold/brass headboard one Saturday Afternoon at Choice - the shop that sells ex-Next...off the 127 in Basildon)
Was it you I filmed giving a naughty naked house tour at 30 The Gables - you went from room to room on all fours - then with the camera placed on a sideboard we filmed ourselves having sex - true or false?
At 22 Bridge Road Shotgate did I film you dancing around in a black open-crotch fishnet body stocking and then film us having sex in the Conservatory - fact or fiction?
Do you recall the time at 11 Shirley Gardens when after stripping off your Police uniform that I filmed you masturbating with a toy truncheon on the bedroom...it was such a turn on for us both that you often repeated this on and off camera at both 64 Chestnut Road and 22 Bridge Road - truth or lie?
JULIE I am offering you the chance of a Lie Detector test `free of charge` - I will pay for it - so the ball is in your court - whats it to be DEAL or NO DEAL?
(More details to help you remember)
We bought the video camera...at either Dixons or some other Electrical Chain...at the Basildon Industrial Estate off the 127.
If you recall - and I ADMIT...I got a `hard-on`...you spotted it...as I filled in all the forms...because I knew what we`d be doing in a few hours.
Does this ring a bell?
Also do you remember what occured at 11 Shirley Gardens? I will jog your memory...and state on my childrens lives...the following.
To make first the polaroid pictures and later the filming to look more `professional`...I would build sort of `studio sets`...is it coming back to you?
I put up a plain curtain and sheet on the floor to make it look like a proper professional studio...remember as I used to attend Page 3 auditions with photographer Steve Payne at his Wapping Studio...so I knew what to do.
I also built a little stage for you to dance and strip on...and would place the camera on cupboards...chest of drawers...chairs...tables...when filming us having sex or you giving blow jobs.
Sometimes it would take ages...as I had to keep checking the angles...and you would...depending on your mood...either start laughing...or get the hump.
DO YOU WISH TO DENY ANY OF THE ABOVE?
Props:
Julie do you recall me buying you sexy black knee-length boots from the Next Catologue? You would wear them with the Anne Summers underwear...again you can deny/lie...but the films dont lie...also old bank statements will confirm what we bought and where!
Do you recall / will you confirm me buying the schoolgirl outfits from that little corner shop on Canvey Island?
At first you`d say "Dressing up as a schoolgirl was pervy"...and I would reply "Men who like real little girls in school uniforms are PERVERTS" adding "There is nothing perverted in men who like WOMEN dressed up as St Trinian schoolgirls"
As proven by the attraction of the Britney Spears Video...and lets not forget the School Dinners restaraunt...where page 3 lookalikes/waitresses dressed as St Trinian schoolgirls...and from memory every rock band in the 1980s went there at least once.
I remember going with Slade, Ozzy...and from memory I think Guns and Roses...all paid for by the Record Companies.
Surely you aint forgotten me buying you a sort of Black Tina Turner style wig...from a stall at The Gallery third/4th Floor at Lakeside?
IF YOU DISAGREE WITH ANY OF THE ABOVE TAKE A LIE DETECTOR TEST...it really is as simple as that.
JULIE JOHNSON - PUB STRIPPER.
I will for the record...and because I only deal in 100% facts...ADMIT that I am NOT sure about this.
(a) I never saw you strip...well not in a pub...I filmed you stripping many times at 11 Shirley Gardens...and 30 The Gables...64 Chestnut Road...22 Bridge Road...and you was "bloody great at it"
BUT I still dont believe you was in fact a dirty pub stripper...I dont want to believe such a thing...BUT you personally told me you was - the first time I filmed you stripping - after I praised your performance you said...I thought you trying to be dirty...but you said something like "I`ve done it before"...when I said (Obviously outraged/jealous LOL)
"You are joking"
I remember you saying "I did it in pubs for about 3 months"...you later said 6 weeks...but at the time I was more interested in having sex then a in-depth conversation.
(b) But about 2/3 years ago some geezer called Nicholas Lightbown (The name made me suspicious)...contacted me after reading THE PUNK POET...and seeing clips of your porno film...and said he knew you from your days as a Pub Stripper.
I thought it was a wind up...then he sent me his address, phone number and mobile details...I still werent convinced...so my friend Toni (who you`ve met) interviewed him...and she was of the opinion he was 100% genuine.
So JULIE JOHNSON I think only a Lie Detector Test will reveal the Truth.
Are you willing to restore or further ruin your reputation?
A truly "INNOCENT" woman...I believe would want the chance to prove she WASNT a serial adulterer, a porno actress or a pub stripper.
She would also want to deny the vile boasts of a fat perverted former pimp.
I am personally willing to have a Lie Detector Test anytime, anyplace, anywhere...are you of the same mind JULIE JOHNSON?
Vindicated
VINDICATED and case proven on every count. Hardly any sleep for a week as I studied again and again 3517 documents, drunk endless coffee, Red Bull and Lucozade. Just had a call from John Baron MP agreed for meet to plan next move and further course of action.
I am not revealing anymore details because I`m "dead on my feet" and gave my `word` not to go public before a certain date.
But will say I was expecting a few `golden bullets` and some `nuggets` but what I`ve got is enough ammunition to fight a `war`.
MTF
I am not revealing anymore details because I`m "dead on my feet" and gave my `word` not to go public before a certain date.
But will say I was expecting a few `golden bullets` and some `nuggets` but what I`ve got is enough ammunition to fight a `war`.
MTF
Friday, 14 September 2012
Garry Bushell and Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson)
Garry Bushell and Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson) - THE GODFATHER OF PUNK AND THE PORN STAR
This Chapter had to be added as after doing the proof reading, checking for spelling mistakes and bad grammar I discovered that the names Garry Bushell and Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson) are mentioned almost as much as yours truly.
Both had a major impact on my life.
The Godfather of Punk as best friend and mentor. Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson) as girlfriend, wife, mother, porn star, love of my life and serial adulterer.
This Chapter had to be added as after doing the proof reading, checking for spelling mistakes and bad grammar I discovered that the names Garry Bushell and Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson) are mentioned almost as much as yours truly.
Both had a major impact on my life.
The Godfather of Punk as best friend and mentor. Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson) as girlfriend, wife, mother, porn star, love of my life and serial adulterer.
Sunday, 9 September 2012
A Rebel With A Cause / Introduction
I am not writing this autobiography because I`m a bighead with a massive ego or because I think I`m Mister Wonderful.
The truth is with very few exceptions (92, 94, 2000) my life has been a complete waste of time. I am a `loser`, a failure and in sporting parlance `The Nearly Man`.
I am the bloke who makes Olympic Finals but never wins a medal. The support act at Rock Festivals the runner-up on The X Factor.
But I still believe I have a story to tell that will both entertain and make people think. Even in defeat I always looked on the bright side of life and considered my glass half full rather then half empty.
Most people would say there have been more lows then highs but I disagree. This is because I`m not "most people".
I am and always have been a dreamer. What dont work today will workout tomorrow as without hope we are nothing.
The Nearly Man is a fair description of how others think of me and how I see myself.
My best mate Garry Bushell met both Reg & Ronnie Kray - I was so envious - but I did get to meet older brother Charlie.
Garry also met Debbie Harry - who to me between 1979 and 1982 - was the best looking woman in the history of the world.
The same week she sat on his lap I met Beki Bondage LOL.
But years later I did get to meet my idols. I shook hands with David Bowie and had a drink with Georgie Best.
I talked my way into tabloid journalism ending up in Fleet Street and hanging out in West Clubs with the rich and famous.
Not bad for a failed footballer, teenage tearaway and borstal boy who left school at Thirteen barely able to read and write.
The truth is with very few exceptions (92, 94, 2000) my life has been a complete waste of time. I am a `loser`, a failure and in sporting parlance `The Nearly Man`.
I am the bloke who makes Olympic Finals but never wins a medal. The support act at Rock Festivals the runner-up on The X Factor.
But I still believe I have a story to tell that will both entertain and make people think. Even in defeat I always looked on the bright side of life and considered my glass half full rather then half empty.
Most people would say there have been more lows then highs but I disagree. This is because I`m not "most people".
I am and always have been a dreamer. What dont work today will workout tomorrow as without hope we are nothing.
The Nearly Man is a fair description of how others think of me and how I see myself.
My best mate Garry Bushell met both Reg & Ronnie Kray - I was so envious - but I did get to meet older brother Charlie.
Garry also met Debbie Harry - who to me between 1979 and 1982 - was the best looking woman in the history of the world.
The same week she sat on his lap I met Beki Bondage LOL.
But years later I did get to meet my idols. I shook hands with David Bowie and had a drink with Georgie Best.
I talked my way into tabloid journalism ending up in Fleet Street and hanging out in West Clubs with the rich and famous.
Not bad for a failed footballer, teenage tearaway and borstal boy who left school at Thirteen barely able to read and write.
Saturday, 8 September 2012
Garry Johnson Photographs
The Camera Never Lies / Every Picture Tells A Story
A selection of photographs from my personal collection.
Garry Johnson Footballer:
Stanford School Team Under 11`s - picture supplied by Terry Turrant
Bata Boys - (photographer unknown)
Hassenbrook School Team - Thurrock Gazzette (photographer unknown)
Garry Johnson Punk Rocker - Photographer Tony Marchant
Garry Johnson with The Stone Roses - Photographer Erica Echenberg
Garry Johnson with Julie Taylor 1989 - (photographer unknown)
Garry & Julie Wedding picture 24th November 1990 - Official Wedding Photo
Garry Johnson with best man Garry Bushell - Official Wedding Photo
Julie Taylor Johnson black body stocking 30 The Gables - Photographer Garry Johnson
Julie Taylor Johnson topless black stockings and suspenders 64 Chestnut Road - Photographer Garry Johnson
Pictures of those born in 1992 and 1994 (both will be named as gagging Order ends on Nov 4th)
Photographer Garry Johnson
Front Cover:
Garry Johnson - Photographer Steve Payne
Back Cover:
Julie Taylor Johnson black and white picture taken in a Southend studio by a very impressed and professional photographer
Note from the Author "Due to costings and 3 added Chapters some pictures have been removed from the First Edition"
A selection of photographs from my personal collection.
Garry Johnson Footballer:
Stanford School Team Under 11`s - picture supplied by Terry Turrant
Bata Boys - (photographer unknown)
Hassenbrook School Team - Thurrock Gazzette (photographer unknown)
Garry Johnson Punk Rocker - Photographer Tony Marchant
Garry Johnson with The Stone Roses - Photographer Erica Echenberg
Garry Johnson with Julie Taylor 1989 - (photographer unknown)
Garry & Julie Wedding picture 24th November 1990 - Official Wedding Photo
Garry Johnson with best man Garry Bushell - Official Wedding Photo
Julie Taylor Johnson black body stocking 30 The Gables - Photographer Garry Johnson
Julie Taylor Johnson topless black stockings and suspenders 64 Chestnut Road - Photographer Garry Johnson
Pictures of those born in 1992 and 1994 (both will be named as gagging Order ends on Nov 4th)
Photographer Garry Johnson
Front Cover:
Garry Johnson - Photographer Steve Payne
Back Cover:
Julie Taylor Johnson black and white picture taken in a Southend studio by a very impressed and professional photographer
Note from the Author "Due to costings and 3 added Chapters some pictures have been removed from the First Edition"
Julie Johnson Basildon Babe / Stripped Bare
Bedroom Secrets and memories from the Heart. Its cards on the table time as I reveal my true feelings for JULIE JOHNSON aka Julie Taylor Johnson.
Richard Grimson And The Shotgate Slut
This Chapter is dedicated to Ian Puddick and Judge Elizabeth Roscoe.
In June 2011 at The High Court the learned Judge ruled that a betrayed husband could reveal every detail of his wife`s infidelity and affair in a blog on the Internet or in a book.
Telling the truth was not a crime.
So anguished by feelings of betrayal, hurt and pain I sat down at the computer and tapped out everything I knew about the affair between my wife and a self-confessed pervert.
What you are about to read is the true story of the affair between Julie Taylor Johnson and child abuser Richard Grimson.
The porn star and the child-abusing former pimp started an affair in June 2004. The `odd couple` lived together at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford where JTJ described the pervert as her "live-in lover" while the authorities named him "the other household member".
Shrek Grimson wasnt the only scumbag in her life as Julie became `best friends` with a dodgy dyke looking Walter Mitty.
A fat version of Eastenders Shirley Carter with a history of `mental illness` (like a good tabloid Journo I interviewed family members) who couldnt open her mouth without lying or as official documents confirm `grassing` (37 times at the last count) as the world will see when all is revealed in print.
Her friend who lives life believing she`s a character in a Martina Cole novel was more `bent` then a nine bob note.
But some of her stories were amusing - all complete "bollocks" - proving her medication didnt just make her fat - she currently has a head like a football - it also gave her a great imagination.
Some of my favourite stories - not just because they were so outrageous - but because they were so easy to check and prove to be lies.
1. She claimed to of been engaged to former England and Arsenal Star Ray Parlour - a phone call to a friend of a friend at The Sun sports desk who contacted the former footballer - and would you believe Ray had never heard of the woman.
2. She claimed to be a`very good friend` of former Ipswich Town and Scotland footballer Alan Brazil boasting "He lets me use his Private Box at The O2".
When contacted the TalkSport presenter had also never heard of the woman.
3. I`m a good friend of Mike Parry. And guess what the former Sun executive who now works as a Football pundit for 5 Live Radio has never heard of her.
Another classic away from Football is her version of a armed robbery in a East End pub where she told impressionable teenagers "I was held hostage and a shotgun was put in my mouth".
More "complete bollocks".
It`s true the boozer just yards from The Sun`s Wapping Headquarters did have a break-in around the same time she worked there as a barmaid...but it wasnt "an armed robbery"...it was a `burglary`...and at no time were any hostages taken.
Another crime classic is her `attack` on Underworld Legend Dave Courtney where she supposedly warned him "stay away from tomorrow`s funeral or else".
This claim was `checked out` by Garry Bushell - not only a personal friend of `Dodgey Dave` - but a Journalist with access to Library cuttings of news reports.
It was of course another lie.
Further proved by film of the funeral on YouTube which when I showed the 8 or 9 impressionable teenagers convinced them she was a `liar` and a `bullshitter`.
YouTube not only shows Courtney attending the high-profile Gangland Funeral - it confirms the fact 30-plus cars left from Camelot Castle and that Dave himself read one of the lessons in church.
For those who want to check Google `The Funeral of Joey Pyle` or watch it on YouTube.
As they say the camera never lies - but Julie`s best friend does everytime she opens her mouth. The only time she isnt telling `porkies` is when she`s `grassing` to Old Bill or other organisations (and I have the documents to prove it).
That is why the once `impressionable teenagers` now laugh behind her back and call her `The Grass` or `Bertie Smalls`.
Nowadays Julie Taylor Johnson is her only follower.
Its funny really - but if you had told me before 2005 that "My Julie" as I called her would end up hanging out with a child-abusing former pimp, a dodgy-dyke looking grass and a ginger dog lower then `mutton dressed as lamb` I wouldnt of believed it.
But sadly it is all true.
In June 2011 at The High Court the learned Judge ruled that a betrayed husband could reveal every detail of his wife`s infidelity and affair in a blog on the Internet or in a book.
Telling the truth was not a crime.
So anguished by feelings of betrayal, hurt and pain I sat down at the computer and tapped out everything I knew about the affair between my wife and a self-confessed pervert.
What you are about to read is the true story of the affair between Julie Taylor Johnson and child abuser Richard Grimson.
The porn star and the child-abusing former pimp started an affair in June 2004. The `odd couple` lived together at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford where JTJ described the pervert as her "live-in lover" while the authorities named him "the other household member".
Shrek Grimson wasnt the only scumbag in her life as Julie became `best friends` with a dodgy dyke looking Walter Mitty.
A fat version of Eastenders Shirley Carter with a history of `mental illness` (like a good tabloid Journo I interviewed family members) who couldnt open her mouth without lying or as official documents confirm `grassing` (37 times at the last count) as the world will see when all is revealed in print.
Her friend who lives life believing she`s a character in a Martina Cole novel was more `bent` then a nine bob note.
But some of her stories were amusing - all complete "bollocks" - proving her medication didnt just make her fat - she currently has a head like a football - it also gave her a great imagination.
Some of my favourite stories - not just because they were so outrageous - but because they were so easy to check and prove to be lies.
1. She claimed to of been engaged to former England and Arsenal Star Ray Parlour - a phone call to a friend of a friend at The Sun sports desk who contacted the former footballer - and would you believe Ray had never heard of the woman.
2. She claimed to be a`very good friend` of former Ipswich Town and Scotland footballer Alan Brazil boasting "He lets me use his Private Box at The O2".
When contacted the TalkSport presenter had also never heard of the woman.
3. I`m a good friend of Mike Parry. And guess what the former Sun executive who now works as a Football pundit for 5 Live Radio has never heard of her.
Another classic away from Football is her version of a armed robbery in a East End pub where she told impressionable teenagers "I was held hostage and a shotgun was put in my mouth".
More "complete bollocks".
It`s true the boozer just yards from The Sun`s Wapping Headquarters did have a break-in around the same time she worked there as a barmaid...but it wasnt "an armed robbery"...it was a `burglary`...and at no time were any hostages taken.
Another crime classic is her `attack` on Underworld Legend Dave Courtney where she supposedly warned him "stay away from tomorrow`s funeral or else".
This claim was `checked out` by Garry Bushell - not only a personal friend of `Dodgey Dave` - but a Journalist with access to Library cuttings of news reports.
It was of course another lie.
Further proved by film of the funeral on YouTube which when I showed the 8 or 9 impressionable teenagers convinced them she was a `liar` and a `bullshitter`.
YouTube not only shows Courtney attending the high-profile Gangland Funeral - it confirms the fact 30-plus cars left from Camelot Castle and that Dave himself read one of the lessons in church.
For those who want to check Google `The Funeral of Joey Pyle` or watch it on YouTube.
As they say the camera never lies - but Julie`s best friend does everytime she opens her mouth. The only time she isnt telling `porkies` is when she`s `grassing` to Old Bill or other organisations (and I have the documents to prove it).
That is why the once `impressionable teenagers` now laugh behind her back and call her `The Grass` or `Bertie Smalls`.
Nowadays Julie Taylor Johnson is her only follower.
Its funny really - but if you had told me before 2005 that "My Julie" as I called her would end up hanging out with a child-abusing former pimp, a dodgy-dyke looking grass and a ginger dog lower then `mutton dressed as lamb` I wouldnt of believed it.
But sadly it is all true.
1988-2005 Julie Johnson and Lee-Anne McQueen
Essex Porn star Lee-Anne Queen had a massive effect on Julie. One night in 2002 we were watching a C4 or C5 TV documentary about the sexy stunner from Canvey Island.
We both agreed she had a fantastic figure - but that Julie was better looking then the Southend born porn star.
Julie said - she had been drinking - "If she can make it in America then so could I"
We both agreed she had a fantastic figure - but that Julie was better looking then the Southend born porn star.
Julie said - she had been drinking - "If she can make it in America then so could I"
Personality Profile
Portrait Of The Artist As A Consumer
Television:
Minder
Cracked Actor (David Bowie documentary)
Only Fools And Horses
The Office
The Inbetweeners
Extras
I`m Alan Partridge
Have I Got News For You
Ever Decreasing Circles
Knowing Me Knowing You
Never Mind The Buzzcocks
The Sweeney
Would I Lie To You
Fawlty Towers
Benidorm
Gavin & Stacey
The Vicar Of Dibley
Men Behaving Badly
Records:
Anarchy In The UK - The Sex Pistols
Ziggy Stardust - David Bowie
Pretty Vacant - The Sex Pistols
Eton Rifles - The Jam
White Man In Hammersmith Palais - The Clash
Love Will Tear Us Apart - Joy Division
Live Forever - Oasis
Up The Junction - Squeeze
Teenage Kicks - The Undertones
Under Pressure (Live) - David Bowie & Annie Lennox
No Woman No Cry - Bob Marley
Suburban Rebels - The Business
I Wanna Be Adored - The Stone Roses
Starman - David Bowie
All The Young Dudes - Mott The Hoople
Someone Like You - Adele
Nothing Compares To You - Sinead O`Connor
Skinhead Moonstomp - Symarip
Absolute Beginners - David Bowie
Oliver`s Army - Elvis Costello
Joey - Bob Dylan
Hurricane - Bob Dylan
Albums:
Ziggy Stardust - David Bowie
Never Mind The Bollocks - The Sex Pistols
Hunky Dory - David Bowie
Aladdin Sane - David Bowie
Diamond Dogs - David Bowie
Setting Sons - The Jam
Give `Em Enough Rope - The Clash
Young Americans - David Bowie
Station To Station - David Bowie
The Stone Roses - The Stone Roses
Transformer - Lou Reed
Films:
Ziggy Stardust
The Man Who Fell To Earth
Get Carter
Scum
The Long Good Friday
Green Street
Lock Stock
Sexy Beast
Goodbye Charlie Bright
Snatch
Villian
Love Honour & Obey
Performance
A Clockwork Orange
Basildon Babe
Outlaw
Angels With Dirty Faces
Quadrophenia
McVicar
The Inbetweeners
Party Party
Mike Bassett Football Manager
Buster
Comedians:
Ricky Gervais
Frankie Boyle
Jimmy Carr
Frank Skinner
Lee Mack
Rob Brydon
Micky Flannagan
Chat Show Hosts / TV Presenters
Jonathan Ross
Ant & Dec
Chris Evans
Graham Norton
Pin Ups:
Debbie Harry (Bondie Heyday)
Joanne Guest
Wendy James (Transvision Vamp)
Amanda Holden
Britt Ekland (Get Carter)
Ola Jordan
Susan George (Straw Dogs)
Suzanne Mitzi
Radio:
John Peel
Steve Allen (LBC)
Hawksby & Jacobs (Talksport)
Jonathan Ross
Television:
Minder
Cracked Actor (David Bowie documentary)
Only Fools And Horses
The Office
The Inbetweeners
Extras
I`m Alan Partridge
Have I Got News For You
Ever Decreasing Circles
Knowing Me Knowing You
Never Mind The Buzzcocks
The Sweeney
Would I Lie To You
Fawlty Towers
Benidorm
Gavin & Stacey
The Vicar Of Dibley
Men Behaving Badly
Records:
Anarchy In The UK - The Sex Pistols
Ziggy Stardust - David Bowie
Pretty Vacant - The Sex Pistols
Eton Rifles - The Jam
White Man In Hammersmith Palais - The Clash
Love Will Tear Us Apart - Joy Division
Live Forever - Oasis
Up The Junction - Squeeze
Teenage Kicks - The Undertones
Under Pressure (Live) - David Bowie & Annie Lennox
No Woman No Cry - Bob Marley
Suburban Rebels - The Business
I Wanna Be Adored - The Stone Roses
Starman - David Bowie
All The Young Dudes - Mott The Hoople
Someone Like You - Adele
Nothing Compares To You - Sinead O`Connor
Skinhead Moonstomp - Symarip
Absolute Beginners - David Bowie
Oliver`s Army - Elvis Costello
Joey - Bob Dylan
Hurricane - Bob Dylan
Albums:
Ziggy Stardust - David Bowie
Never Mind The Bollocks - The Sex Pistols
Hunky Dory - David Bowie
Aladdin Sane - David Bowie
Diamond Dogs - David Bowie
Setting Sons - The Jam
Give `Em Enough Rope - The Clash
Young Americans - David Bowie
Station To Station - David Bowie
The Stone Roses - The Stone Roses
Transformer - Lou Reed
Films:
Ziggy Stardust
The Man Who Fell To Earth
Get Carter
Scum
The Long Good Friday
Green Street
Lock Stock
Sexy Beast
Goodbye Charlie Bright
Snatch
Villian
Love Honour & Obey
Performance
A Clockwork Orange
Basildon Babe
Outlaw
Angels With Dirty Faces
Quadrophenia
McVicar
The Inbetweeners
Party Party
Mike Bassett Football Manager
Buster
Comedians:
Ricky Gervais
Frankie Boyle
Jimmy Carr
Frank Skinner
Lee Mack
Rob Brydon
Micky Flannagan
Chat Show Hosts / TV Presenters
Jonathan Ross
Ant & Dec
Chris Evans
Graham Norton
Pin Ups:
Debbie Harry (Bondie Heyday)
Joanne Guest
Wendy James (Transvision Vamp)
Amanda Holden
Britt Ekland (Get Carter)
Ola Jordan
Susan George (Straw Dogs)
Suzanne Mitzi
Radio:
John Peel
Steve Allen (LBC)
Hawksby & Jacobs (Talksport)
Jonathan Ross
Garry Johnson Working Class Hero
Cockney Rebel Punk Poet
Forewood by Garry Bushell
Introduction by Garry Johnson
Chapters:
1. Stop The Ride I Want To Get Off
2. Angels With Dirty Faces
3. Sex Drugs and Rock & Roll
4. Childhood
5. Schooldays
6. The White Pele
7. Teenage Wildlife
8. The Ziggy Stardust Years
9. Personality Profile
10. The Punk Poet
11. The Stone Roses
12. Fleet Street
13. Tabloid Tales
14. 1988-2005
15. Polaroid Pictures & Porno Movies
16. Not Talking about My 15 Year Marriage Would Be Like Sir Geoff Hurst Forgetting To Mention His World Cup Hat-trick
17. Richard Grimson and The Shotgate Slut
18. The Book They Tried To Ban
19. Basildon Babe / Stripped Bare
20. 2006-2012
21. Garry Bushell and Julie Taylor Johnson
22. Photographs:
(a) Garry Johnson as a boy
(b) Garry Johnson Footballer
(c) Garry Johnson Punk
(d) Garry Johnson and Julie Johnson 1989
(e) Garry & Julie Johnson Wedding Picture 24-11-90
(f) Garry with best man Garry Bushell
(g) Topless picture of Julie Taylor Johnson 30 The Gables
(h) Sexy picture of Julie Taylor Johnson 64 Chestnut Road
(i) Pictures of those born on 23rd April 92 and 4th November 94
(j) Garry Johnson 2012
23. The Last Word
About 100 words from each Chapter will feature in this Blog.
Forewood by Garry Bushell
Introduction by Garry Johnson
Chapters:
1. Stop The Ride I Want To Get Off
2. Angels With Dirty Faces
3. Sex Drugs and Rock & Roll
4. Childhood
5. Schooldays
6. The White Pele
7. Teenage Wildlife
8. The Ziggy Stardust Years
9. Personality Profile
10. The Punk Poet
11. The Stone Roses
12. Fleet Street
13. Tabloid Tales
14. 1988-2005
15. Polaroid Pictures & Porno Movies
16. Not Talking about My 15 Year Marriage Would Be Like Sir Geoff Hurst Forgetting To Mention His World Cup Hat-trick
17. Richard Grimson and The Shotgate Slut
18. The Book They Tried To Ban
19. Basildon Babe / Stripped Bare
20. 2006-2012
21. Garry Bushell and Julie Taylor Johnson
22. Photographs:
(a) Garry Johnson as a boy
(b) Garry Johnson Footballer
(c) Garry Johnson Punk
(d) Garry Johnson and Julie Johnson 1989
(e) Garry & Julie Johnson Wedding Picture 24-11-90
(f) Garry with best man Garry Bushell
(g) Topless picture of Julie Taylor Johnson 30 The Gables
(h) Sexy picture of Julie Taylor Johnson 64 Chestnut Road
(i) Pictures of those born on 23rd April 92 and 4th November 94
(j) Garry Johnson 2012
23. The Last Word
About 100 words from each Chapter will feature in this Blog.
Saturday, 1 September 2012
Angels With Dirty Faces
Fans of the classic gangster movie Angels With Dirty Faces will understand what I`m saying.
The truth is I just cant get the final five minutes out of my head and keep thinking "should I do a Jimmy Cagney?".
At low points I must admit I am tempted to follow in the footsteps of the anti-hero.
The Cagney character has to decide whether to go out in a `blaze of glory` or to do `the right thing` for the sake of others.
I am torn and the more I think about it the harder it is to make a decision.
My main problem is how history will judge me in the future. So do I choose ego or legacy?
What if my last act instead of being recognised as an herioc gesture was considered a moment of weakness by my enemies?
That would mean the past seven years would of been a waste. So do I risk losing face for what I know is the greater good or do I remain true to myself?
Another film from my childhood - my Dad`s favourite - The Jolson Story - as a kid I must of watched at least 30 times - is not helping me to decide.
Again its the final scene in the Hollywood Night Club and the last conversation between the singers Manager and Jolsons wife.
If I told you her name you`d think I was making it up!
That last "goodbye" affected me as a child and like the final scene in Angels With Dirty Faces I have never forgotten that conversation.
Some things enter your head and never leave. I still play `Anarchy In The UK` by The Sex Pistols at least two or 3 times a week.
I never tire of it and still get `goosebumps` when I hear the opening chords or David Bowie quitting as Ziggy Stardust.
"Of all the shows on the tour - this paricular show will remain with us the longest - because not only is it the last show of the tour - its the last show we`ll ever do - thank you very much - goodbye we love you"
It was sad - it moved me - I still watch it on YouTube. The truth is Bowie/Ziggy was the biggest influence on my life.
I loved The Kray Twins, idolised Georgie Best - but David Bowie was my religion.
So as I was saying do I copy Jimmy Cagney and sacrifice my ego for the future benefit of others or do I take my reputation to the grave?
I want to do `the right thing`, the noble and honourable thing, if you like the decent thing - but I know that certain people would consider it a `moment of weakness` and rip my reputation to shreds.
They would not appreciate my final gesture. So what do I do? The right thing for me or the correct thing for others?
I am trying to think of a film that will help me come to a decision.
The truth is I just cant get the final five minutes out of my head and keep thinking "should I do a Jimmy Cagney?".
At low points I must admit I am tempted to follow in the footsteps of the anti-hero.
The Cagney character has to decide whether to go out in a `blaze of glory` or to do `the right thing` for the sake of others.
I am torn and the more I think about it the harder it is to make a decision.
My main problem is how history will judge me in the future. So do I choose ego or legacy?
What if my last act instead of being recognised as an herioc gesture was considered a moment of weakness by my enemies?
That would mean the past seven years would of been a waste. So do I risk losing face for what I know is the greater good or do I remain true to myself?
Another film from my childhood - my Dad`s favourite - The Jolson Story - as a kid I must of watched at least 30 times - is not helping me to decide.
Again its the final scene in the Hollywood Night Club and the last conversation between the singers Manager and Jolsons wife.
If I told you her name you`d think I was making it up!
That last "goodbye" affected me as a child and like the final scene in Angels With Dirty Faces I have never forgotten that conversation.
Some things enter your head and never leave. I still play `Anarchy In The UK` by The Sex Pistols at least two or 3 times a week.
I never tire of it and still get `goosebumps` when I hear the opening chords or David Bowie quitting as Ziggy Stardust.
"Of all the shows on the tour - this paricular show will remain with us the longest - because not only is it the last show of the tour - its the last show we`ll ever do - thank you very much - goodbye we love you"
It was sad - it moved me - I still watch it on YouTube. The truth is Bowie/Ziggy was the biggest influence on my life.
I loved The Kray Twins, idolised Georgie Best - but David Bowie was my religion.
So as I was saying do I copy Jimmy Cagney and sacrifice my ego for the future benefit of others or do I take my reputation to the grave?
I want to do `the right thing`, the noble and honourable thing, if you like the decent thing - but I know that certain people would consider it a `moment of weakness` and rip my reputation to shreds.
They would not appreciate my final gesture. So what do I do? The right thing for me or the correct thing for others?
I am trying to think of a film that will help me come to a decision.
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