Garry Bushell and Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson) - THE GODFATHER OF PUNK AND THE PORN STAR
This Chapter had to be added as after doing the proof reading, checking for spelling mistakes and bad grammar I discovered that the names Garry Bushell and Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson) are mentioned almost as much as yours truly.
Both had a major impact on my life.
The Godfather of Punk as best friend and mentor. Julie Johnson (Julie Taylor Johnson) as girlfriend, wife, mother, porn star, love of my life and serial adulterer.
Friday, 14 September 2012
Sunday, 9 September 2012
A Rebel With A Cause / Introduction
I am not writing this autobiography because I`m a bighead with a massive ego or because I think I`m Mister Wonderful.
The truth is with very few exceptions (92, 94, 2000) my life has been a complete waste of time. I am a `loser`, a failure and in sporting parlance `The Nearly Man`.
I am the bloke who makes Olympic Finals but never wins a medal. The support act at Rock Festivals the runner-up on The X Factor.
But I still believe I have a story to tell that will both entertain and make people think. Even in defeat I always looked on the bright side of life and considered my glass half full rather then half empty.
Most people would say there have been more lows then highs but I disagree. This is because I`m not "most people".
I am and always have been a dreamer. What dont work today will workout tomorrow as without hope we are nothing.
The Nearly Man is a fair description of how others think of me and how I see myself.
My best mate Garry Bushell met both Reg & Ronnie Kray - I was so envious - but I did get to meet older brother Charlie.
Garry also met Debbie Harry - who to me between 1979 and 1982 - was the best looking woman in the history of the world.
The same week she sat on his lap I met Beki Bondage LOL.
But years later I did get to meet my idols. I shook hands with David Bowie and had a drink with Georgie Best.
I talked my way into tabloid journalism ending up in Fleet Street and hanging out in West Clubs with the rich and famous.
Not bad for a failed footballer, teenage tearaway and borstal boy who left school at Thirteen barely able to read and write.
The truth is with very few exceptions (92, 94, 2000) my life has been a complete waste of time. I am a `loser`, a failure and in sporting parlance `The Nearly Man`.
I am the bloke who makes Olympic Finals but never wins a medal. The support act at Rock Festivals the runner-up on The X Factor.
But I still believe I have a story to tell that will both entertain and make people think. Even in defeat I always looked on the bright side of life and considered my glass half full rather then half empty.
Most people would say there have been more lows then highs but I disagree. This is because I`m not "most people".
I am and always have been a dreamer. What dont work today will workout tomorrow as without hope we are nothing.
The Nearly Man is a fair description of how others think of me and how I see myself.
My best mate Garry Bushell met both Reg & Ronnie Kray - I was so envious - but I did get to meet older brother Charlie.
Garry also met Debbie Harry - who to me between 1979 and 1982 - was the best looking woman in the history of the world.
The same week she sat on his lap I met Beki Bondage LOL.
But years later I did get to meet my idols. I shook hands with David Bowie and had a drink with Georgie Best.
I talked my way into tabloid journalism ending up in Fleet Street and hanging out in West Clubs with the rich and famous.
Not bad for a failed footballer, teenage tearaway and borstal boy who left school at Thirteen barely able to read and write.
Saturday, 8 September 2012
Garry Johnson Photographs
The Camera Never Lies / Every Picture Tells A Story
A selection of photographs from my personal collection.
Garry Johnson Footballer:
Stanford School Team Under 11`s - picture supplied by Terry Turrant
Bata Boys - (photographer unknown)
Hassenbrook School Team - Thurrock Gazzette (photographer unknown)
Garry Johnson Punk Rocker - Photographer Tony Marchant
Garry Johnson with The Stone Roses - Photographer Erica Echenberg
Garry Johnson with Julie Taylor 1989 - (photographer unknown)
Garry & Julie Wedding picture 24th November 1990 - Official Wedding Photo
Garry Johnson with best man Garry Bushell - Official Wedding Photo
Julie Taylor Johnson black body stocking 30 The Gables - Photographer Garry Johnson
Julie Taylor Johnson topless black stockings and suspenders 64 Chestnut Road - Photographer Garry Johnson
Pictures of those born in 1992 and 1994 (both will be named as gagging Order ends on Nov 4th)
Photographer Garry Johnson
Front Cover:
Garry Johnson - Photographer Steve Payne
Back Cover:
Julie Taylor Johnson black and white picture taken in a Southend studio by a very impressed and professional photographer
Note from the Author "Due to costings and 3 added Chapters some pictures have been removed from the First Edition"
A selection of photographs from my personal collection.
Garry Johnson Footballer:
Stanford School Team Under 11`s - picture supplied by Terry Turrant
Bata Boys - (photographer unknown)
Hassenbrook School Team - Thurrock Gazzette (photographer unknown)
Garry Johnson Punk Rocker - Photographer Tony Marchant
Garry Johnson with The Stone Roses - Photographer Erica Echenberg
Garry Johnson with Julie Taylor 1989 - (photographer unknown)
Garry & Julie Wedding picture 24th November 1990 - Official Wedding Photo
Garry Johnson with best man Garry Bushell - Official Wedding Photo
Julie Taylor Johnson black body stocking 30 The Gables - Photographer Garry Johnson
Julie Taylor Johnson topless black stockings and suspenders 64 Chestnut Road - Photographer Garry Johnson
Pictures of those born in 1992 and 1994 (both will be named as gagging Order ends on Nov 4th)
Photographer Garry Johnson
Front Cover:
Garry Johnson - Photographer Steve Payne
Back Cover:
Julie Taylor Johnson black and white picture taken in a Southend studio by a very impressed and professional photographer
Note from the Author "Due to costings and 3 added Chapters some pictures have been removed from the First Edition"
Julie Johnson Basildon Babe / Stripped Bare
Bedroom Secrets and memories from the Heart. Its cards on the table time as I reveal my true feelings for JULIE JOHNSON aka Julie Taylor Johnson.
Richard Grimson And The Shotgate Slut
This Chapter is dedicated to Ian Puddick and Judge Elizabeth Roscoe.
In June 2011 at The High Court the learned Judge ruled that a betrayed husband could reveal every detail of his wife`s infidelity and affair in a blog on the Internet or in a book.
Telling the truth was not a crime.
So anguished by feelings of betrayal, hurt and pain I sat down at the computer and tapped out everything I knew about the affair between my wife and a self-confessed pervert.
What you are about to read is the true story of the affair between Julie Taylor Johnson and child abuser Richard Grimson.
The porn star and the child-abusing former pimp started an affair in June 2004. The `odd couple` lived together at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford where JTJ described the pervert as her "live-in lover" while the authorities named him "the other household member".
Shrek Grimson wasnt the only scumbag in her life as Julie became `best friends` with a dodgy dyke looking Walter Mitty.
A fat version of Eastenders Shirley Carter with a history of `mental illness` (like a good tabloid Journo I interviewed family members) who couldnt open her mouth without lying or as official documents confirm `grassing` (37 times at the last count) as the world will see when all is revealed in print.
Her friend who lives life believing she`s a character in a Martina Cole novel was more `bent` then a nine bob note.
But some of her stories were amusing - all complete "bollocks" - proving her medication didnt just make her fat - she currently has a head like a football - it also gave her a great imagination.
Some of my favourite stories - not just because they were so outrageous - but because they were so easy to check and prove to be lies.
1. She claimed to of been engaged to former England and Arsenal Star Ray Parlour - a phone call to a friend of a friend at The Sun sports desk who contacted the former footballer - and would you believe Ray had never heard of the woman.
2. She claimed to be a`very good friend` of former Ipswich Town and Scotland footballer Alan Brazil boasting "He lets me use his Private Box at The O2".
When contacted the TalkSport presenter had also never heard of the woman.
3. I`m a good friend of Mike Parry. And guess what the former Sun executive who now works as a Football pundit for 5 Live Radio has never heard of her.
Another classic away from Football is her version of a armed robbery in a East End pub where she told impressionable teenagers "I was held hostage and a shotgun was put in my mouth".
More "complete bollocks".
It`s true the boozer just yards from The Sun`s Wapping Headquarters did have a break-in around the same time she worked there as a barmaid...but it wasnt "an armed robbery"...it was a `burglary`...and at no time were any hostages taken.
Another crime classic is her `attack` on Underworld Legend Dave Courtney where she supposedly warned him "stay away from tomorrow`s funeral or else".
This claim was `checked out` by Garry Bushell - not only a personal friend of `Dodgey Dave` - but a Journalist with access to Library cuttings of news reports.
It was of course another lie.
Further proved by film of the funeral on YouTube which when I showed the 8 or 9 impressionable teenagers convinced them she was a `liar` and a `bullshitter`.
YouTube not only shows Courtney attending the high-profile Gangland Funeral - it confirms the fact 30-plus cars left from Camelot Castle and that Dave himself read one of the lessons in church.
For those who want to check Google `The Funeral of Joey Pyle` or watch it on YouTube.
As they say the camera never lies - but Julie`s best friend does everytime she opens her mouth. The only time she isnt telling `porkies` is when she`s `grassing` to Old Bill or other organisations (and I have the documents to prove it).
That is why the once `impressionable teenagers` now laugh behind her back and call her `The Grass` or `Bertie Smalls`.
Nowadays Julie Taylor Johnson is her only follower.
Its funny really - but if you had told me before 2005 that "My Julie" as I called her would end up hanging out with a child-abusing former pimp, a dodgy-dyke looking grass and a ginger dog lower then `mutton dressed as lamb` I wouldnt of believed it.
But sadly it is all true.
In June 2011 at The High Court the learned Judge ruled that a betrayed husband could reveal every detail of his wife`s infidelity and affair in a blog on the Internet or in a book.
Telling the truth was not a crime.
So anguished by feelings of betrayal, hurt and pain I sat down at the computer and tapped out everything I knew about the affair between my wife and a self-confessed pervert.
What you are about to read is the true story of the affair between Julie Taylor Johnson and child abuser Richard Grimson.
The porn star and the child-abusing former pimp started an affair in June 2004. The `odd couple` lived together at 10 Carswell Gardens Wickford where JTJ described the pervert as her "live-in lover" while the authorities named him "the other household member".
Shrek Grimson wasnt the only scumbag in her life as Julie became `best friends` with a dodgy dyke looking Walter Mitty.
A fat version of Eastenders Shirley Carter with a history of `mental illness` (like a good tabloid Journo I interviewed family members) who couldnt open her mouth without lying or as official documents confirm `grassing` (37 times at the last count) as the world will see when all is revealed in print.
Her friend who lives life believing she`s a character in a Martina Cole novel was more `bent` then a nine bob note.
But some of her stories were amusing - all complete "bollocks" - proving her medication didnt just make her fat - she currently has a head like a football - it also gave her a great imagination.
Some of my favourite stories - not just because they were so outrageous - but because they were so easy to check and prove to be lies.
1. She claimed to of been engaged to former England and Arsenal Star Ray Parlour - a phone call to a friend of a friend at The Sun sports desk who contacted the former footballer - and would you believe Ray had never heard of the woman.
2. She claimed to be a`very good friend` of former Ipswich Town and Scotland footballer Alan Brazil boasting "He lets me use his Private Box at The O2".
When contacted the TalkSport presenter had also never heard of the woman.
3. I`m a good friend of Mike Parry. And guess what the former Sun executive who now works as a Football pundit for 5 Live Radio has never heard of her.
Another classic away from Football is her version of a armed robbery in a East End pub where she told impressionable teenagers "I was held hostage and a shotgun was put in my mouth".
More "complete bollocks".
It`s true the boozer just yards from The Sun`s Wapping Headquarters did have a break-in around the same time she worked there as a barmaid...but it wasnt "an armed robbery"...it was a `burglary`...and at no time were any hostages taken.
Another crime classic is her `attack` on Underworld Legend Dave Courtney where she supposedly warned him "stay away from tomorrow`s funeral or else".
This claim was `checked out` by Garry Bushell - not only a personal friend of `Dodgey Dave` - but a Journalist with access to Library cuttings of news reports.
It was of course another lie.
Further proved by film of the funeral on YouTube which when I showed the 8 or 9 impressionable teenagers convinced them she was a `liar` and a `bullshitter`.
YouTube not only shows Courtney attending the high-profile Gangland Funeral - it confirms the fact 30-plus cars left from Camelot Castle and that Dave himself read one of the lessons in church.
For those who want to check Google `The Funeral of Joey Pyle` or watch it on YouTube.
As they say the camera never lies - but Julie`s best friend does everytime she opens her mouth. The only time she isnt telling `porkies` is when she`s `grassing` to Old Bill or other organisations (and I have the documents to prove it).
That is why the once `impressionable teenagers` now laugh behind her back and call her `The Grass` or `Bertie Smalls`.
Nowadays Julie Taylor Johnson is her only follower.
Its funny really - but if you had told me before 2005 that "My Julie" as I called her would end up hanging out with a child-abusing former pimp, a dodgy-dyke looking grass and a ginger dog lower then `mutton dressed as lamb` I wouldnt of believed it.
But sadly it is all true.
1988-2005 Julie Johnson and Lee-Anne McQueen
Essex Porn star Lee-Anne Queen had a massive effect on Julie. One night in 2002 we were watching a C4 or C5 TV documentary about the sexy stunner from Canvey Island.
We both agreed she had a fantastic figure - but that Julie was better looking then the Southend born porn star.
Julie said - she had been drinking - "If she can make it in America then so could I"
We both agreed she had a fantastic figure - but that Julie was better looking then the Southend born porn star.
Julie said - she had been drinking - "If she can make it in America then so could I"
Personality Profile
Portrait Of The Artist As A Consumer
Television:
Minder
Cracked Actor (David Bowie documentary)
Only Fools And Horses
The Office
The Inbetweeners
Extras
I`m Alan Partridge
Have I Got News For You
Ever Decreasing Circles
Knowing Me Knowing You
Never Mind The Buzzcocks
The Sweeney
Would I Lie To You
Fawlty Towers
Benidorm
Gavin & Stacey
The Vicar Of Dibley
Men Behaving Badly
Records:
Anarchy In The UK - The Sex Pistols
Ziggy Stardust - David Bowie
Pretty Vacant - The Sex Pistols
Eton Rifles - The Jam
White Man In Hammersmith Palais - The Clash
Love Will Tear Us Apart - Joy Division
Live Forever - Oasis
Up The Junction - Squeeze
Teenage Kicks - The Undertones
Under Pressure (Live) - David Bowie & Annie Lennox
No Woman No Cry - Bob Marley
Suburban Rebels - The Business
I Wanna Be Adored - The Stone Roses
Starman - David Bowie
All The Young Dudes - Mott The Hoople
Someone Like You - Adele
Nothing Compares To You - Sinead O`Connor
Skinhead Moonstomp - Symarip
Absolute Beginners - David Bowie
Oliver`s Army - Elvis Costello
Joey - Bob Dylan
Hurricane - Bob Dylan
Albums:
Ziggy Stardust - David Bowie
Never Mind The Bollocks - The Sex Pistols
Hunky Dory - David Bowie
Aladdin Sane - David Bowie
Diamond Dogs - David Bowie
Setting Sons - The Jam
Give `Em Enough Rope - The Clash
Young Americans - David Bowie
Station To Station - David Bowie
The Stone Roses - The Stone Roses
Transformer - Lou Reed
Films:
Ziggy Stardust
The Man Who Fell To Earth
Get Carter
Scum
The Long Good Friday
Green Street
Lock Stock
Sexy Beast
Goodbye Charlie Bright
Snatch
Villian
Love Honour & Obey
Performance
A Clockwork Orange
Basildon Babe
Outlaw
Angels With Dirty Faces
Quadrophenia
McVicar
The Inbetweeners
Party Party
Mike Bassett Football Manager
Buster
Comedians:
Ricky Gervais
Frankie Boyle
Jimmy Carr
Frank Skinner
Lee Mack
Rob Brydon
Micky Flannagan
Chat Show Hosts / TV Presenters
Jonathan Ross
Ant & Dec
Chris Evans
Graham Norton
Pin Ups:
Debbie Harry (Bondie Heyday)
Joanne Guest
Wendy James (Transvision Vamp)
Amanda Holden
Britt Ekland (Get Carter)
Ola Jordan
Susan George (Straw Dogs)
Suzanne Mitzi
Radio:
John Peel
Steve Allen (LBC)
Hawksby & Jacobs (Talksport)
Jonathan Ross
Television:
Minder
Cracked Actor (David Bowie documentary)
Only Fools And Horses
The Office
The Inbetweeners
Extras
I`m Alan Partridge
Have I Got News For You
Ever Decreasing Circles
Knowing Me Knowing You
Never Mind The Buzzcocks
The Sweeney
Would I Lie To You
Fawlty Towers
Benidorm
Gavin & Stacey
The Vicar Of Dibley
Men Behaving Badly
Records:
Anarchy In The UK - The Sex Pistols
Ziggy Stardust - David Bowie
Pretty Vacant - The Sex Pistols
Eton Rifles - The Jam
White Man In Hammersmith Palais - The Clash
Love Will Tear Us Apart - Joy Division
Live Forever - Oasis
Up The Junction - Squeeze
Teenage Kicks - The Undertones
Under Pressure (Live) - David Bowie & Annie Lennox
No Woman No Cry - Bob Marley
Suburban Rebels - The Business
I Wanna Be Adored - The Stone Roses
Starman - David Bowie
All The Young Dudes - Mott The Hoople
Someone Like You - Adele
Nothing Compares To You - Sinead O`Connor
Skinhead Moonstomp - Symarip
Absolute Beginners - David Bowie
Oliver`s Army - Elvis Costello
Joey - Bob Dylan
Hurricane - Bob Dylan
Albums:
Ziggy Stardust - David Bowie
Never Mind The Bollocks - The Sex Pistols
Hunky Dory - David Bowie
Aladdin Sane - David Bowie
Diamond Dogs - David Bowie
Setting Sons - The Jam
Give `Em Enough Rope - The Clash
Young Americans - David Bowie
Station To Station - David Bowie
The Stone Roses - The Stone Roses
Transformer - Lou Reed
Films:
Ziggy Stardust
The Man Who Fell To Earth
Get Carter
Scum
The Long Good Friday
Green Street
Lock Stock
Sexy Beast
Goodbye Charlie Bright
Snatch
Villian
Love Honour & Obey
Performance
A Clockwork Orange
Basildon Babe
Outlaw
Angels With Dirty Faces
Quadrophenia
McVicar
The Inbetweeners
Party Party
Mike Bassett Football Manager
Buster
Comedians:
Ricky Gervais
Frankie Boyle
Jimmy Carr
Frank Skinner
Lee Mack
Rob Brydon
Micky Flannagan
Chat Show Hosts / TV Presenters
Jonathan Ross
Ant & Dec
Chris Evans
Graham Norton
Pin Ups:
Debbie Harry (Bondie Heyday)
Joanne Guest
Wendy James (Transvision Vamp)
Amanda Holden
Britt Ekland (Get Carter)
Ola Jordan
Susan George (Straw Dogs)
Suzanne Mitzi
Radio:
John Peel
Steve Allen (LBC)
Hawksby & Jacobs (Talksport)
Jonathan Ross
Garry Johnson Working Class Hero
Cockney Rebel Punk Poet
Forewood by Garry Bushell
Introduction by Garry Johnson
Chapters:
1. Stop The Ride I Want To Get Off
2. Angels With Dirty Faces
3. Sex Drugs and Rock & Roll
4. Childhood
5. Schooldays
6. The White Pele
7. Teenage Wildlife
8. The Ziggy Stardust Years
9. Personality Profile
10. The Punk Poet
11. The Stone Roses
12. Fleet Street
13. Tabloid Tales
14. 1988-2005
15. Polaroid Pictures & Porno Movies
16. Not Talking about My 15 Year Marriage Would Be Like Sir Geoff Hurst Forgetting To Mention His World Cup Hat-trick
17. Richard Grimson and The Shotgate Slut
18. The Book They Tried To Ban
19. Basildon Babe / Stripped Bare
20. 2006-2012
21. Garry Bushell and Julie Taylor Johnson
22. Photographs:
(a) Garry Johnson as a boy
(b) Garry Johnson Footballer
(c) Garry Johnson Punk
(d) Garry Johnson and Julie Johnson 1989
(e) Garry & Julie Johnson Wedding Picture 24-11-90
(f) Garry with best man Garry Bushell
(g) Topless picture of Julie Taylor Johnson 30 The Gables
(h) Sexy picture of Julie Taylor Johnson 64 Chestnut Road
(i) Pictures of those born on 23rd April 92 and 4th November 94
(j) Garry Johnson 2012
23. The Last Word
About 100 words from each Chapter will feature in this Blog.
Forewood by Garry Bushell
Introduction by Garry Johnson
Chapters:
1. Stop The Ride I Want To Get Off
2. Angels With Dirty Faces
3. Sex Drugs and Rock & Roll
4. Childhood
5. Schooldays
6. The White Pele
7. Teenage Wildlife
8. The Ziggy Stardust Years
9. Personality Profile
10. The Punk Poet
11. The Stone Roses
12. Fleet Street
13. Tabloid Tales
14. 1988-2005
15. Polaroid Pictures & Porno Movies
16. Not Talking about My 15 Year Marriage Would Be Like Sir Geoff Hurst Forgetting To Mention His World Cup Hat-trick
17. Richard Grimson and The Shotgate Slut
18. The Book They Tried To Ban
19. Basildon Babe / Stripped Bare
20. 2006-2012
21. Garry Bushell and Julie Taylor Johnson
22. Photographs:
(a) Garry Johnson as a boy
(b) Garry Johnson Footballer
(c) Garry Johnson Punk
(d) Garry Johnson and Julie Johnson 1989
(e) Garry & Julie Johnson Wedding Picture 24-11-90
(f) Garry with best man Garry Bushell
(g) Topless picture of Julie Taylor Johnson 30 The Gables
(h) Sexy picture of Julie Taylor Johnson 64 Chestnut Road
(i) Pictures of those born on 23rd April 92 and 4th November 94
(j) Garry Johnson 2012
23. The Last Word
About 100 words from each Chapter will feature in this Blog.
Saturday, 1 September 2012
Angels With Dirty Faces
Fans of the classic gangster movie Angels With Dirty Faces will understand what I`m saying.
The truth is I just cant get the final five minutes out of my head and keep thinking "should I do a Jimmy Cagney?".
At low points I must admit I am tempted to follow in the footsteps of the anti-hero.
The Cagney character has to decide whether to go out in a `blaze of glory` or to do `the right thing` for the sake of others.
I am torn and the more I think about it the harder it is to make a decision.
My main problem is how history will judge me in the future. So do I choose ego or legacy?
What if my last act instead of being recognised as an herioc gesture was considered a moment of weakness by my enemies?
That would mean the past seven years would of been a waste. So do I risk losing face for what I know is the greater good or do I remain true to myself?
Another film from my childhood - my Dad`s favourite - The Jolson Story - as a kid I must of watched at least 30 times - is not helping me to decide.
Again its the final scene in the Hollywood Night Club and the last conversation between the singers Manager and Jolsons wife.
If I told you her name you`d think I was making it up!
That last "goodbye" affected me as a child and like the final scene in Angels With Dirty Faces I have never forgotten that conversation.
Some things enter your head and never leave. I still play `Anarchy In The UK` by The Sex Pistols at least two or 3 times a week.
I never tire of it and still get `goosebumps` when I hear the opening chords or David Bowie quitting as Ziggy Stardust.
"Of all the shows on the tour - this paricular show will remain with us the longest - because not only is it the last show of the tour - its the last show we`ll ever do - thank you very much - goodbye we love you"
It was sad - it moved me - I still watch it on YouTube. The truth is Bowie/Ziggy was the biggest influence on my life.
I loved The Kray Twins, idolised Georgie Best - but David Bowie was my religion.
So as I was saying do I copy Jimmy Cagney and sacrifice my ego for the future benefit of others or do I take my reputation to the grave?
I want to do `the right thing`, the noble and honourable thing, if you like the decent thing - but I know that certain people would consider it a `moment of weakness` and rip my reputation to shreds.
They would not appreciate my final gesture. So what do I do? The right thing for me or the correct thing for others?
I am trying to think of a film that will help me come to a decision.
The truth is I just cant get the final five minutes out of my head and keep thinking "should I do a Jimmy Cagney?".
At low points I must admit I am tempted to follow in the footsteps of the anti-hero.
The Cagney character has to decide whether to go out in a `blaze of glory` or to do `the right thing` for the sake of others.
I am torn and the more I think about it the harder it is to make a decision.
My main problem is how history will judge me in the future. So do I choose ego or legacy?
What if my last act instead of being recognised as an herioc gesture was considered a moment of weakness by my enemies?
That would mean the past seven years would of been a waste. So do I risk losing face for what I know is the greater good or do I remain true to myself?
Another film from my childhood - my Dad`s favourite - The Jolson Story - as a kid I must of watched at least 30 times - is not helping me to decide.
Again its the final scene in the Hollywood Night Club and the last conversation between the singers Manager and Jolsons wife.
If I told you her name you`d think I was making it up!
That last "goodbye" affected me as a child and like the final scene in Angels With Dirty Faces I have never forgotten that conversation.
Some things enter your head and never leave. I still play `Anarchy In The UK` by The Sex Pistols at least two or 3 times a week.
I never tire of it and still get `goosebumps` when I hear the opening chords or David Bowie quitting as Ziggy Stardust.
"Of all the shows on the tour - this paricular show will remain with us the longest - because not only is it the last show of the tour - its the last show we`ll ever do - thank you very much - goodbye we love you"
It was sad - it moved me - I still watch it on YouTube. The truth is Bowie/Ziggy was the biggest influence on my life.
I loved The Kray Twins, idolised Georgie Best - but David Bowie was my religion.
So as I was saying do I copy Jimmy Cagney and sacrifice my ego for the future benefit of others or do I take my reputation to the grave?
I want to do `the right thing`, the noble and honourable thing, if you like the decent thing - but I know that certain people would consider it a `moment of weakness` and rip my reputation to shreds.
They would not appreciate my final gesture. So what do I do? The right thing for me or the correct thing for others?
I am trying to think of a film that will help me come to a decision.
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